Guilted into Marriage [Completed]

Chapter 11 : Define The Relationship

Perfect kiss that I dreamed of.
I got sick the next day, he had to travel for some training. He suggested staying at his parents house while he is away. It may be a bit far away from my office but it's better than staying alone.

I missed him. His parents were nice as usual. It's good to be with people than staying alone. His family helped me get out of my homesickness. His sister and his niece visited me more often. He used to call me at night, talk about his day, ask about my health, just the general stuff.

That night he was prolonging our telephonic conversation more than usual. Lexi was sleeping in my bed, so I was talking in a lower tone not wanting to disturb her. He responded in a soft husky tone as well, which was sexy. Out of nowhere he said that he wanted to kiss me. I said nothing. Kevin is the first guy in my life. I know nothing about relationships, love or sex. His words woke my desire to kiss him, but I was afraid to express my feelings. I wondered whether talking about things like this over the phone is called oral sex. If it is, am I ready for it? Am I ready to have sex with him?
"You there?"
"Yes"
"What are you thinking?"
"Nothing"
"Did you think of our last kiss?"
"No", I said defensively
"Okay saint. I know you do not like kissing and stuff, but I'm just a poor guy who can't shake the image of your soft lips"
I chuckled.
"Can't wait to see you tomorrow. Good night beautiful!"
"Good night. Sleep well"

I was doing dishes in the kitchen. His training was supposed to end that day. I was dying to meet him, it felt like forever although it has been only four days. He came to the kitchen surprised me from behind.
"I heard that you ate eggs?"
"Yes, not directly. Your mom made banana bread. She didn't know that I don't eat egg, I didn't want to disappoint her. So.."
"You didn't have to do that"
"It's fine."
"Sometimes you make me question whether I deserve this love"
"Of course you do. You deserve all the love in this wor.." before I could complete the sentence he kissed. I was still holding the plate and scrub. I kissed him back. Our kiss was interrupted when his mom walked into kitchen. She said not to mind her presence but it was awkward. He smiled at me with his eyes full of love. I couldn't wait to go to our home and spend some time with him alone. I couldn't wait to kiss him without any interruption.

That night we went home. We went to our separate rooms. I couldn't sleep for hours. At last I muscled up some courage and went to his room.
"Can I sleep in your bed for tonight? I couldn't sleep"
"Sure. Come on in"
He let me in. I settled in on his bed. He was wearing only his boxers. He asked if I want him to be dressed. I didn't have any problem with that. He hopped on to the bed. We have slept together earlier at his parents place, but this time it felt different, exciting and scary at the same time. I was laying curled up at the edge of the bed. He pulled me back to him, like I weighed nothing. He wrapped his hands around me and asked
"You are okay with cuddling, right?"
"hmm"
"Good night beautiful" he placed a soft kiss on my head.
Usually my heart beat increases when I'm closer to him, but this night it was normal. I felt warm and safe under his cover. I slept like a baby.

Next morning I surprised him with a gift, a portrait of him. I drew it myself while he was away. He was surprised even shocked. He appreciated me.

"I like you very much. I appreciate you making this for me, Really. No one has done anything like this for me. I like what we have right now. But I doubt that I may not be the husband you expect me to be. I never wanted to get married or have kids. None of that was in my list. I think you want those. I'm afraid that I'm not the right guy. I married you because I wanted make things right by you for what I did to you. I'm confused and I don't know what's going to be our future. "