Sprousehart Oneshots

Forever, My flower

Lili .POV.

I get off my phone and wipe my eyes trying not to ruin the makeup on my face. I stand up and smoothen out my dress I was wearing for a scene I was about to shoot. My head feels like it's on fire, it pounds and ringing noises flow through my ears. I just got news from home that my childhood dog, Delilah, died. I saw this coming, she was old and had cancer, but even though it wasn't shocking it doesn't ease the pain. I gulp back tears and repeat, "don't cry, don't cry" under my breath so hopefully I will talk myself out of crying. I did this often in situations where I wanted to start crying, when Cami had to kiss cole in an episode during season 2 is a good example.

I grab a bottle of water from my trailers fridge and look at my face in the mirror, my eyes are bloodshot and puffy but no makeup has been smudged. I close my eyes and take a big breath, "just get through it Lili" I whisper to myself. "Get through what" I hear, I turn and see Madelaine at my door in her full Cheryl outfit,  "nothing I'm just super tired and I ran out of coffee" I giggle trying to keep my voice from wavering. she nods and pulls a face, "yeah it's a bitch when that happens, anyway their ready for us on set" she smiles shutting the door. "Thanks" I call out to her, I pull on the shoes that blister my feet and make me suffer, and I make my way to the set.

Once I get there I find my chair and sit down, I bury myself on my phone so no one will talk to me. I manage to film my scene without complications, that why I love acting, its a way to escape the real world. After shooting I bolt to my trailer and take off my costume, I get into my sweats and ugg boots, take out my hair ruffling it out with my fingers. Then I grab my stuff and head out to find my car, it's dark, cold and scary but I manage to find my car. I get in and sigh as  I begin my trip home. 

20 minutes later

I though my bag down onto the floor with a thud, Cole was away on a shoot so I'm alone for a week. I fall onto the couch and let tears fall down my face, I don't sob or make noises. I just let tears roll down my eyes with an occasional sniff. After a while of this pattern going on, I pick up my phone and pick a photo of Deliah to post, my favorite is immediately the one I pick. Cole took it while we were on Thanksgiving break with my family, one of the last happy memories with her. 

I take a while to come up with a caption but slowly the words start to flow, I then post the photo before putting down my phone. I go to the kitchen and start making myself a grilled cheese when I hear my phone buzz uncontrollably, I turn it over and see waves of condolences over social media and text come through. I roll my eyes and turn my phone back over, although I appreciate the "im sorry's" and "it will get better", it won't bring my dog back. I continue to make my grilled cheese while listening to ding after ding. Once my grilled cheese is done I walk back to my couch and sit down taking my phone with me so I can hear the noise of the notifications in the background as I think. 

I take a huge bite of my grilled cheese when I get a new sound on my phone, I pick it up and see Cole Facetiming me. I sigh and set my phone up on a wobbly drink bottle, I answer the call and pull on the best fake smile I know how to do. "Hey baby" I sniff as his beautiful face comes on to the screen, "I miss you" I meant it, my heart ached for him right now. "Hello beautiful, I miss you too,  I saw your post how are you feeling?" he asks me laying his head sideways on the pillow he's resting his head on, he looks tired. I feel my bottom lip tremble and I gulp, I drop the grilled cheese that's in my hand back onto its plate and cover my mouth to control the sobbing noises that I know are coming.

I feel hot tears burn out of my eyes and on to my cheeks, "I'm heartbroken, I can't believe she's gone". He sighs and tears up too, "I know Lili, I know. God, I don't know what to say. I wish I was there to kiss you and make everything okay" he says softly in a calm tone. "But I'm still here and I'm gonna talk to you if you want me" he suggests, that makes me feel a little better having somebody to talk to. "I love you" I whisper to him wiping my puffy face, "I love you more" he whispers back. We keep talking as I eat, change into my pajamas and wash my face. "I'm gonna go to bed" I say to him sitting on our bed.  "Okay well I'll call you in the morning okay?" he says, I see his hand reaching for the hangup button. "Okay, cole? can you please talk to me until I fall asleep or is that sad" I ask him, he giggles and nods."I can my love, I'll do anything for you" he smiles, I lie down and we talk for what could be minutes or hours.  But the last thing I remember before falling asleep was Cole's voice whispering to me, "I love you, forever my flower".

AN - Hey sorry it's taken me so long to write, I've been extreme writer's block at the moment. Please leave a comment on what you would like my to write for my next piece. I'm open to suggestions for bughead oneshots as well xx