Sprousehart Oneshots

It's not your fault

Cole .POV.

I feel someone push my side waking me up, I sit up and my alarm clock is the first thing I see. 2:35 AM, weird, I sit up and rub my eyes looking towards where the poke came from. I see a very upset Lili, I instantly feel my stomach drop. Lili and I have been trying to have a baby for a few years now and it's never worked out anytime leaving us both heartbroken. I could tell it took a huge tole on Lili, she longed for a baby more than anything. Then we found out she was pregnant a few months ago. I have never seen her more happy, she was picking names and paint colors for the babies room. She was now 5 months into the pregnancy and she's been having weird pains.

I turn on my lamp and look back at Lili, I look down and see her lying in blood. "No" I whisper, she shakes her head and starts to cry. I get up and grab a backpack, I pick clothing for her as fast as possible. I throw the backpack onto my back and then go to Lili's side, "okay my love try not to panic okay, can you get up for me" I try and stay calm, I know what's happening, so does she, but panicking would make it worse. "It hurt's Cole, it hurts" she cried crouching over her baby bump. I nod and grab her strongly, I pull her up into a bridal carry and hold her as I help her walk. Slowly we make it to the car and I help her lay down in the seat, "Okay just lay down and take deep breaths" I nod to her before closing the door and going to the driver's seat. Once I start driving I hear Lili say, "Cole I'm scared". I feel my heartbreak but I try and stay strong for her, I take one hand off the wheel and behind my seat so I can hold her hand. I feel her grasp it tightly and sniff, "I know Lili, I am too".

We make it to the hospital within a matter of minutes due to me driving like a mad man. I hold Lili in my arms, supporting most of her weight so we could get in faster. I run into the crowded waiting room looking around, I help Lili into a spare seat and I go to the counter. "Excuse me, I need help my-" I don't get to finish my sentence before the nurse cuts me off. She shoves a clip bored towards me, "fill this out and we'll be with you soon" she says not even looking up from the computer in front of her. "Mame please it's my wife she-" I once again get cut off, "sir look around we don't have time for everyone you need to be patient". I feel my insides start to boil and my face flush with warmth, "look I don't care, my wife is in a lot of pain. She's five months pregnant and she's bleeding heavily, please help us" I feel tears burn down my face as I beg to this woman. She gets up and calls a code, I go over to Lili when I see a nurse helping her into a wheelchair. I hold her hand as they run, me next to her the whole way through the hospital. They go into a room and hold me back, I try to go, but they don't allow me in. I wait outside for 2 hours pacing and crying.

I eventually fall asleep in one of the waiting chairs, I get waken up by a man in blue scrubs. "Mr Sprouse" He mutters, I stand up quickly and I nod. "Yes, that's me, are they okay" I just want to know if Lili and Baby are okay. "Mrs Sprouse if perfectly fine, she's recovering" he looks down at his papers and I feel confused. "Recovering?" I ask him, "I'm sorry Sir, we tried our best, but the child lost her heartbeat, there was no saving that child". I feel my body stutter and I fall back into one of the seats, her. A little girl, my little girl. Why did this happen? How? I hear the doctor tell me Lili's room number before leaving. I wipe my tears and go into Lili's room, I see her sobbing into her hands, her stomach is flat. 

"Lili" I whisper, that's all I can get out, I walk over and she looks up. "I'm so sorry, I don't know what happened, I hate myself" she bursts out looking up from her hands, I walk faster to get to her side. I sit down on the bed, I pull her into my chest and we both cry. It could have been minutes or hours but we just cried. "Lili don't blame yourself, I don't know how this happened. But it's not your fault, it never will be. You will be an amazing mother one day, and this little angel is in your heart and mine. Don't blame your self" I whisper into her ear softly. We sit there for longer, we also lay down and hold each other tightly. "I love you" She whispers through soft cries, I hold her tighter, "I love you too". The next few days are hard but slowly Lili starts to lighten up again, so do I. It will never stop being painful, but it's one step at a time, and we both know that no matter what. We'll always stick together.

AN - sorry this one is super bad, but I wanted to get the idea out. Please if you have any suggestions let me know. Thank you for reading xx