* i held the pillow that she gave me for our anniversary.
I squeezed my eyes shut as i held on tightly to the pillow hoping and praying it was all a dream i wanted it to be a dream.*
"why y/n why"
* i whispered to myself as i felt my warm tears leave my eyes and fall on the pillow, she broke my heart, yet i still loved her *
" i needed you"
-i couldn't tell myself that i still needed her-
* i thought about her smile, the way she laughed at my stupid jokes the way her eyes light up when we looked deeply into each other.*
" i still miss you"
* i remembered when she first told me she loved me, she meant it...right?*
" yes mattia, i promise"
* i sniffed and smelt her scent, her beautiful smell *
" i will always love you "
* i remember meeting her siblings she got embarrassed when her little sister talked about y/ns favorite stuffed animal *
" stuffy the bear"
* i remember when she met my friends *
" they are nice mattia."
* i remember when she told me *
" I'm sorry "
" You promised."
" I love him"
* i held the pillow tighter remembering what you told me *
" it's just a dream"
* my body was numb my heart was broken *
" you broke me"
* i let go i couldn't take it anymore i got up to look at myself. I looked sick my eyes red my nose red my hair a mess my hair a mess*
" it's all your fault"
* i remembered*
"I'm sorry Mattia i cheated on you"
* i tried to scream but no sound came out, your love consumed me*
" He makes me feel different"
* i fell to my knees when you told me *
" What i felt wasn't real mattia."
" it was a dream"
* i don't remember how, i was downstairs, i remembered *
" pancakes are my favorite mattia"
* you laughed and i smiled at your beauty *
" I think i love you "
* i was now upstairs in the corner of the room i didn't care nothing mattered i remembered one last time*
" I cheated on you with alejandro "
* i couldn't see nor breathe correctly my body stopped as my eyes start to close*
" i still love you y/n "
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A.N: so i thought about this and just wrote my thoughts. i'm sorry, this is bad.
