Only His Love | book one

Chapter 45: Broken II

*anxiety warning*

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Y/N looked at Tae, worried.

"You messed up? What happened?" You cup his cheek and you expressed concern and dismay. He pushed you away softly and spoke the softest you've ever heard it.

"W........" You had no idea what he was trying to say. Tears began to streaming down his face. Silent tears, not the ones you hear.

"Taehyung. What did you say?" You pull him in for a hug, but he pushes you away again. Softly. Not harsh, but with love behind it. You sit there, on top of him. He drags his hand down your arm, but then he let go.

"Y/N....you're going to hate me for this."

You look at him in disbelief and cross your arms.

"Now why in the hell would I hate you? You're perfect, you're everything to me. The only thing I would be upset about is if you...."

He looked into your eyes....tears falling out of them. You completely lost track of what you were saying.

"Y/N, we need to split up."

Those words echoed in you. Your ears ringing with resonance from his voice. Your heart started pounding, in fear. You get up slowly and run your hands through your hair. Your face, completely lifeless. You look him in his tearing eyes.

"Wait, what?" You said quietly as you looked through him, to the wall. Your mind went blank.

Taehyung rubs the back of his head while glancing at you, trying to hold in his pain.
You walk slowly, holding on to the wall, your heart pounding so hard, it felt like it would burst out of your chest.

"Tae....I don't understand.....What did I do wrong?" You said quietly, no force behind your voice. You were going to break. You were so close to shattering.

He got up and followed you, concerned.

"What did I do wrong?! I don't understand!" You began crying, pandemonium. Your cries we're so loud, Taehyung couldn't take it. He wanted to run up to you, but he couldn't. He had to stay strong.

"Y/N, I......." You turn around in an instant, eyes darting at him.

"Why would you say that? Are you trying to scare me? You better be joking." You began to breathe shortly as your chest began to hurt. Cold, without his touch, your breaths became shallow.

"I can't do this." You were finally broken, your throat forcing pressure through your mouth making your speech rushed. Taehyung rushed up behind you and forced you to turn around and pulled you into a hug so fast.

"Wha-" You couldn't breathe, your feelings shattering, dilapidating. He holds the back of your head as you try to push him away.

"Y/N, listen! Please listen! I'm doing this for a reason!"

Your eyes went wide.

"You're serious about it all?! Why are you breaking up with me? If I'm not pretty enough, I'm sorry. If I'm not loving enough, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" You ball your fists and place them up to your eyes, keeping the tears hidden.

"Y/N, listen to me, there's a lot going on with my mom...this isn't easy for me either. I don't want them to ruin what we have, and if you get involved, it could get so much worse."

You continued crying, holding on to his hand while he stood behind you.

"Then why didn't you say anything before hurting me?"
Taehyung's eyes became red and puffy. He cried more than he ever did. He was shocked,

"But I have to break up with you." Taehyung took a deep breath, and looked closely in your eyes.

"Why..." You whispered, breath escaping your lips. You clutched at his shirt, with nothing on but your panties. You began to look down in embarrassment and let go, running toward the bedroom.

"Y/N, can you listen to me?" Taehyung was pleading for your attention. He wanted to hold you, and explain. He couldn't get any words out of his mouth. 

You turned around and gripped his shirt tightly.

"So you want us to be over? After all the things we went through? How many years have we been together? It felt like it was eons." You looked down to the ground and started gripping at your hair. You felt the need to walk out of your own house. It wasn't right to be there.

"I honestly felt like you didn't want to be with me for the past three days. I felt so compelled to talk to you about it. I figured you would tell me about all that has been happening. Still, if something or someone is pulling you away from being with me, I'm not surprised. Look at me, hah," you looked down at yourself. "I'm literally in nothing but underwear. Sad to see, isn't it?"

You stepped into your bedroom and started dressing yourself up to leave and began packing a bag with clothes. He grabbed your hand and pulled you in for a hug.

"Don't hug me. It will only hurt me more."

"Y/N, will you let me talk?!"

You look at him in disbelief.

"Now you're going to yell at me?"

You push him away and make a snarl.

"Whenever you feel like your life is in order, you better apologize and come back to me. By the looks of it, it sounds like you still love me. I need to clear my head." You grab your purse and a duffle bag you had packed previously. 

"Y/N, why won't you let me explain anything at all..." Taehyung looked down and tears began falling down his cheeks.

You walked up to the front door and opened it.

"Goodbye, Taetae."

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The door shut as he cried. He pulled at his hair in anger and extreme loneliness.

"Why?" He whispered to himself as he fell to the floor, pulling himself in, clutching his legs up against his chest.

Taehyung pulled his phone out in anger and called his uncle.

"Hey. It's over. Get my mother and put her on the line right now."

Tae was frustrated, enough to punch a whole through the wall. The line picked up to a woman laughing.

"Hello, Taehyung sweetie? What's wrong with my sweet boy?" Her voice obviously  sounded over-joyed.

"It's done. Are you happy?!" 

Taehyung's rage went through the roof. He was glad Y/N wasn't in the room. He would never want to her to see him with this much rage.

"The promiscuous girl is finally out of the picture."

Taehyung held his anger until he shouted so loud through the line.

"WHY CAN'T YOU SHUT UP? BAD ENOUGH I'M NOT WITH HER ANYMORE."

The other line went quiet.

"IS THIS WHY YOU'RE SAD? BECAUSE FATHER IS GONE?"

"Son..." Her breath hitched.

He could her his mother cry on the other line.

"Yeah..." She wavered her voice.

"It's not fair. I understand now." Taehyung balled his fists and breathed slowly.

"Listen, mom, I'm sorry for flying off the handle. She means the world to me, is this why you lied about not remembering her? You didn't want to lose me?"

"Sweetie. Let's meet up. Where are you?"

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You sat in your car and gripped the steering wheel. Your tears had continued trickling down your porcelain, pale, face.

"It really is over, isn't it?" You looked in your rear-view mirror and pulled away.

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OMG. IT'S GOING DOWN. >.<