Lucky 4

welcoming

*Lacey*

The next morning when my son and i awoke he knew he was in a new place and he had to adjust, this was going to be hard, then again i hope not.

"Goodmorning mommy" said mason and the way he said it was just too cute, goodmorning baby boy. I love waking up looking in his face my son is the reason i want better, thankfully there was no school today because it was saturday. "Mommy where are we?" This is our new home for now babe. "Well what about daddy?" There was a knock at the door so im grateful didnt have to answer that question. Come in, i yelled. it was the girl kaylee and she had her daughter in her arms she was so beautiful and mason thought she was too.

"Hey.....Lacey right?" yes thats right im lacey and your kaylee correct? "Yes i am--- I just wanted to know if our kids could play together sometime, being here and adjustfing to a new place is going to be rough and idont wanna make it to hard on lexia." Thats fine i dont mind. "we're aving breakfast in about 20 minutes, you should come down, they said it was basically like an introduction for us that just got here as well."Okay well if thats the case we'll be down there shortly.

Kaylee walked out the room and shut the door back how she found it. "Ma shes pretty" said mason. Who ms.Kaylee? "No the other girl" Boy you are a mess go freshen up. "Okay mom" After exactly 20minutes we were down stairs and at the breakfast/meeting.

"Hello ladies im mrs. knickels and im the house mother i promise you will be safe here and i will make sure you are not harmed we do not tolerate that the thing is you have to want better you cant leave and go right back especially if there is a child involved parents must understand that this can have a really bad affect on the childs future, we provide home schooling and we also can provide work as well so you really dont have to worry about anything."

She went on an on telling us important things, dont worry one day ima be back on.

*KAYLEE*

The meeting went well I've never felt so comfortable, and lexia looks more happy here. Since i have free time today i think ima enroll in college to be a medical assisting, i gotta do what i gotta do for me and mines by any means.

The lady here in the home said they would help us with our appearance but when you got tattoos to identify you that appearance change ain't gone matter.
I got my hair cut down into megan goods hair style hell it looks damn good on me cause i kinda resemble her im just thicker.

Lexia and i took a cab to Ayers community college i enrolled and star next Monday.

Once back at the home i went and chatted with lacey, maliyah and nicki for awhile, while lexia played with mason. Its funny how you never know
What someone is going through and all of our stories resemble in some way, maliyah story really stuck out because having a father who does those kinda things to you must hurt and then her mama ain do shit. Thats why i protect my daughter with my life ill kill a mufucka behind her.

We all went our selection ways to our rooms and i walked in and heard something vibrate, then i forgot i had my lil government phone. I opened the phone and read the horrific text......

" Bitch so you think you can just up and leave you gone pay for this shit bitch i'll kill yo ass before i let you just walk out my life i hope you dont think ima let another nigga have you hmph you got
Me fucked up kay but you'll be back don't nobody want you and ya hoe ass aint got nowhere to go"

I was drowned in tears when i finished reading that message. I had no intentions of living in fear for the rest of my life ever and this is what it came down too, i refuse for him to have a hold on my life i refuse.

*Maliyah*

Since ive came to this shelter ive been at peace it feels good not having anyone to put their hands on me or touch me in any kind of way. I'm at peace being here but not at peace with my life, how did my life go from rainbows and unicorns to hell on earth i was a good child.

My parents had great jobs and everything, money wasn't the issue.. And then again money played a part of the issue. When both of your parents get hooked on meth i guess thats when all the shit start to happen.

My bruises still haven't healed the shit is ugly and when i get in the shower the water dont make it better the lady here in the home dyed my hair jet black and cut it in a bob i was flawless my tight asian eyes made it even better, I didn't even recognize me.

Im still somewhat tied to my old life before i can start over because I'm pregnant, by my dad.

Im totally against abortions but this is one i cant keep at all i should be about 7 weeks i have money saved so im gonna get this out first thing in the morning and also find me a new job for when im done with school.

*Nicki*

"NO GET OFF OF ME STOP, PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO HURT ME"

I woke up to realize that it was just a dream. The nightmares haven't stopped at all.

*knock knock *

"Nicki are you okay?" Said mrs.knickles

Yes im fine just a bad dream.

I wish these nightmares would stop I've been having these since the first time i was touched in that trashy ass group home.

I was dropped off there i guess from birth hell nobody has ever showed up to get me, ive always wondered what happen to my real parents and why they didn't want.

I always wanted to have a regular life like the kids i went to school with.

Many night I've thought about cutting my wrist and ending it all. I feel like i have something to live for i just dont know what it is yet.

I sing at night to take myself to my happy place and that only lasts until the song ends I truly believe i have a great voice god blessed me with this gift but why couldn't he bless with parents that cared for me im not ugly at all.

I think my appearance looks better than before since i went from blonde to jet black i kinda favor the singer jhene aiko.

Me and maliyah looks like an asian shes so beautiful.

I wish i walked around with confidence instead of walking around with my head down, what if other people dont think im pretty.

All i wanna do is graduate from high school and pursue a singing career, i have faith i can do that im just gonna pray.