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Trudging through the grocery store with a look of disinterest in my eyes, I grabbed everything I needed off the given shelves; Tampons, Pillsbury Cinnamon Rolls I liked to bake sometimes in the evening, a much needed bottle of wine and that condensed milk Jennie loves to eat with her Strawberries.
Trips to the grocery store always happened on Wednesdays. It switched back and forth between Jennie and I. This week happened to be mine. I didn't like shopping. Quite frankly I found it consuming, annoying, tiring and I probably wouldn't do it if it wasn't necessary.
Approaching the fruit section, I grabbed little baggies and picked up the usual fruits I always purchased. Bananas, tangerines, green grapes and strawberries.
Backing up unknowingly, I feel my back colliding into a solid figure.
"Shit, I'm so sorry!" I quickly apologize turning to look at the man, who's already staring down at me with box of strawberries in his hand. He doesn't say anything for a few seconds, only staring at me with zero shame even though the little encounter was starting to get weird fast.
I think he must have noticed my furrowed expression before gruffly mumbling, it's fine.
I nod just as he turns to look at the strawberries again. His eyes moving back and forth between the batch in his hand and the dozens of others sitting in front of him.
"The best ones are always at the top." I reveal. Reaching over to grab the perfectly shaped, perfectly red box of fruits from the very top of the pile.
"I see."
"Trust me. I come here all the time. I never go wrong with choosing from the top."
The man nods not bothering to even look at me. I say nothing else, moving past the quiet guy and going for the bright yellow bananas. Now picking good bananas weren't that hard. I usually just picked up the one with the most on its stem. I shrug my shoulders, placing them in the full basket. For some reason I find myself looking back to see quiet man grabbing a box of strawberries from the top of the pile.
It would be an absolute shame if the strawberries turned out to be shit.
Eventually I left the grocery store. Quite literally struggling to carry all the bags in my hand. Thankfully my apartment was just around the corner from the store. It was tough but I managed. I nudged my knee against the wooden surface, hoping Jennie was home so I didn't have to wrestle to find my keys.
"Welcome home honey!" Jennie grins brightly as she swings the door open.
I squint, sizing her up and down. "What's wrong with you?"
"Nothing. I just had a really good day is all," she shrugs her shoulders, trying to hide her smile while taking two bags from me.
"Well....good for you."
"How was your day?"
"Same old." I softly mutter. "Wasn't bad, wasn't good I guess."
I hear the clicking of little paws following behind me and instantly find myself smiling at the sight of Dalgom and Kuma. Once I place the bags in the kitchen, I turn to greet the two boys pressing kisses against their heads.
"You know what I think?"
"Nope but I feel like I'm about to."
I glance at my best friend and notice the hesitant look on her petite face. "Everyday you go to work and come straight home. It's either your here or there and you only ever talk to Selgui, Jinyoung or myself. Don't you think it's time for you to start getting yourself out there again?"
"I'm fine with the life I live." I softly speak. "If I happen to find someone along the way then okay but other than that, I'm not going to go looking for anyone either Jen."
"It's been two years." She sighs. A sad look on her face.
"Yes two years since I walked in on my ex boyfriend in bed with another woman. Sorry if I'm not jumping at the opportunity to put myself in that type of position again." I kept my voice steady not wanting to get angry with Jennie when I know she only meant well. "Listen I'm going to go freshen up. You got this?"
"Yeah." She offers a small smile. "I'll start dinner and I'll have a glass of wine waiting for you."
With a tired smile on my lips, I simply nod and walk into my bedroom. It's messy and I make a mental note to straighten it up tomorrow evening.
My mind can't help itself from retreating back to Jennie's words.
It's either your here or there and you only ever talk to Selgui, Jinyoung or myself.
I took it as her saying I didn't have a life or if anything the life I lived was boring.
I wouldn't classify myself as someone who was unhappy because I knew that wasn't the case. I'm content with my life. I have a great job that may stress me out from time to time but what job doesn't? I have a nice apartment. I have good friends even if it varies to only three people. I live comfortably. I'm content. I can't think of wanting anything else.
