〰️ Saving Sawyer 〰️

1|Jump

{Sawyer}
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"Jump"

Chapter One

My shaky hands meet the cold metal of the railing, my breathing matching the movement of my hands. My vision blurs with the tears that come rushing down my face as the wind forces my head to spin to the other side.

Is there anything you'd like to say before I go?

I ask the friends and family behind me. I turn around, they're not there. Of course as expected that's why I came to this decision anyway.

The wind forces my sweater up and I stare down at the bandage over my self inflicted scars. The fresh one from yesterday still hurts. A lot.

More tears race to my eyes as I try to climb up on the railing getting ready to jump. The cold air pushes me forward and I let out a small scream, still trying to find the courage to do this.

My hand slip off the railing and I'm on the ground. I'm such a failure I can't even jump off the railing right.

I get up again hesitating in climbing up onto the railing.

Once I'm sitting leaning over the edge, I allow myself to bask in the cold air around me, if I would miss anything it was definitely this. The free feeling this moment gave me.

"Jump" I hear a voice behind me, a male voice, the swift movement of me turning around to look almost causes me to lose my grip on the railing, so I had to stay still even though I wanted to see who was behind me.

Nobody comes to this part of school.

"W-what?" I speak, my throat is dry as tears roll down my cracked lips. 

"The longer you hesitate the more difficult it'll be" He replies. I slowly turn to look at him. I've never seen him before, he must be new or something. Even though I don't know three-quater of the school population, he didn't look like he was from around here.

He stands looking at me before running a hand through his side swept undercut. His long hair is messy and it really suits him.

He pulls some more smoke from his cigar before dropping it to the floor and stepping on it.

I turn around as I don't know what to reply. I take a deep breath feeling my wet eyes close. It'll be easier to jump if my eyes are closed. Right?

I just want the pain to stop, I just want my family to understand but no matter how much I wanted to let go, I couldn't, I really wanted to but...I can't.

"You don't want to do this, do you?" He asks.

I consider it and slowly shake my head. "I..just want the pain to stop"

I hold my head down as I have no idea why I'm expressing my feelings to someone I don't know.

I sat there for a short while before there is a grip on my waist and my feet is on the ground. I look up at him as his hands still rest on my waist.

"Next time, don't be stupid" He says before walking off. Thoughts of him telling the whole school of this clouded my mind and it made me tell him to stop.

As if he knew what I was thinking, he gave me a nod before continuing to walk away. I look over at the railing once more before picking up my bag pack, maybe there is a less hard way to end it.

"Sawyer" Someone calls while I'm in the hallway. I turn around to meet my twin sister, Samantha.

Even though we were identical people instantly knew which one was which.