Save Me

"DREW, FREAKIN STOP! GET OFF OF ME!!" I yelled pushing my boyfriend off of me as he tried to pull my shirt over my head. He angrily got off the bed and slapped me. "Stop being such a baby. You know you want me. Just let me make you happy babe." I snorted at his arrogance as I rolled over to face the wall. "No Drew! You are drunk. You need to go to bed. Please babe! Just go to sleep. We can talk in the morning." He mumbled under his breath followed by the sound of footsteps and the slamming of the door. Sighing I settled in the bed and I drifted into a comfortable daze. Not long after I feel into a deep and peaceful sleep. The next morning I was awoken by the feeling of a weight on top of me. I was horrified to see a naked Drew on top of me. I pushed him off the bed and quickly covers myself seeing I was naked too.  I began to cry as I came to the realization of what had actually happened. I had been raped. I quickly hopped into the shower and scrubbed my skin raw hoping to get rid of the evidence from the night before. Still crying I threw on Drew's sweatpants and a hoodie that belonged to my boyfriends band mate and my best friend, Matt. I quickly scribbled a note for before heading down the stairs for breakfast. When I reached the lobby I noticed that my brother and his band mates were already eating so I grabbed some food before joining them. We all began talking about life and the tour ahead of us. Everything seemed to be going good. That was until Drew angrily stormed over to our table. "Good morning babe. Thanks for waking me up. It was much appreciated. Also thanks for inviting me to breakfast. Glad I wasn't hungry or anything." He snarled at me. His attitude and tone quickly caught the attention of my brother and his band. "Babe calm down please. I didn't want to wake you so I left a note. I wanted food. Plus my brother was here. I'm sorry. I promise it won't happen again." This just seemed to fuel more rage. "I don't care what you wanted to do or who was here!! You snuck out! You left me! You are so lucky that I am on a time limit today or I would punish you right her. I'd make everyone see what a little whore you are. This is not over Lil!!" He shoved me before storming out of the hotel. I looked down in shame trying not to cry. "What the hell Lillian?? What was that?" Michael demanded trying not to yell. Without looking up I said, "chill Mikey. He's just stressed. He always gets this way before tour. This is a lot for him." I looked up when Calum snorted angrily. " yeah right he's totally stressed. Look Lilly, call it whatever you want but you can't hide the truth forever." I could feel Luke and Ashtons eyes boring into me as the stared at me. This caused me to become irritated. "What are you looking at? Let me guess you two want to add your two cents as well?" Without another word I stormed to my room. The rest of the day went by smoothly. Drew even let me come on stage and sing with them for a few songs. I thought everything from the morning had been forgotten but boy was I wrong. As soon as we had made it back to the hotel I was slammed against the wall and beaten until I couldn't move. Seeing this as opportunity he proceeded to rape me. Over the next few weeks the beating became a duly thing. I also became better at hiding the marks left behind. Everyone assumed we had fixed things. Everyone assumed we were happy. If only they knew the secrets we were hiding. Then the day came. Drew found my pregnancy test and ultrasound. I was almost 2 months along. That night he beat me until he thought I was dead. Matt, who was rooming next to us, had heard everything. He rushed me to the hospital where we met up with my brother and his band. Other than bruises everywhere, cracked ribs and a dislocated jaw I was ok. The baby was ok too. I broke down and finally told everyone the truth. 5SOS was still on tour with the Chainsmokers but they all made sure I never saw Drew again. Also during this time Matt and I got together. 6 months later I welcomed the most beautiful princess into the world. Her name was Grace Hope Clifford. A month later Matt and I got engaged!! Now life is good. Our family was perfect and Matt and I were living a fairy tale.