Hello I'm going to try to write a journal this isn't going to be as funny as it is gonna be sad and f@!ked up
My spelling and etc in writing sucks so deal with it
Well today is 11/2/2014
Entry 1
I don't really give a crap what time to is right now I'm just focussing on this.
My teacher is standing there still talking about Shakespeare to tell the truth him and Shakespeare can go f&$k themselves I just got over a bad time with a girl and I might go into detail later but I'm gonna start with who I am.... My name is....well let's just call me Logan it's not my real name but if you know who I am from reading this cool. I'm 15 although I'm smarter than my 21 year old brother. He's going through a tough time right now like really bad. He just found out he has herpes and well he gave it to his girlfriend who has cancer which means all of the white blood cells in her body are focussing On healing the herpes so she has been given only 4 months to live...seriously if you don't like sad story's stop now. She has a 4 year old son who looks up to me because even though my brother and his mother are only dating he's like a son to my brother and I'm like his uncle.my brother also has a criminal record and has failed probation . He is going to jail for about a year real soon and my grades are so low that I might not pass freshmen year!. My life is okay I have a lot of fun but I don't feel like I belong sometimes. I feel out of place or not right. After a while I just felt nothing. Now no matter what I say do not ink for a second that I'm emo or fucking goth I hate sad sacks like them even though I've don't emo things hell I tried cutting but not to feel I just needed to think and it worked. I can't beleive I'm doing this anyway I guess talking to myself got old so now I'm writing it down I don't know why.
I don't wanna seem PHSYCOTIC or crazy but I'm not even sure if I am or not I'm writing this both for myself and to see if I can find someone like me I hope you enjoyed the first entry
Well I'm back for numb-2 this is gonna be my second entry
Entry 2
Screw the date
I have gotten better but I'm still depressed I've dabbled in some things you might fine odd.....magic... I'm being completely serious this is a non fiction but I've done some research and I might try some things. I've also tried video game therapy who knew blowing heads off in farcry 3 would be so satisfying. My bro almost went to jail but he is one lucky motherf@&ker the judge pardoned him. My mom and uncle are still fighting like little kids over the stupidest sh$t
I've been played by this one girl and she blames me even though she lied to me. I can't believe I came back to writing this I'm only doing it because it's something other than keeping my feeling bottled up. Love eludes me still I'm forever looking though. We've been listing to the audio book of Romeo and Juliette in English class it's a little confusing.im starting to lose myself in my emotions and if any of you understand let me know I could use some good friends.
Guess who's back with another pile of hot steamy life and all of it's joys
Entry 3
Well I guess I'm doing better but like ever I'm still pretty screwed by life in fact I've learned a little thing about life. We as Americans were born on one concept....f$&k you.... That's what were taught from birth and I've felt where it's come in handy in fact my motto is f@&k it! Yesterday xbox live was shut down for like 5 hours because of some stupid hackers. Anyway I'm glad someone is reading if any like I said my goal for writing this is to find people with similar problems to relate to. Do you know when parents talk about how they're parents hit them when they were out of line as a kid it works last night I said f$&k to my moms face and she smacked me now I never want to swear in my home again she's a little scary when she wants to be. Im confused on who I am anymore I go on omegle and rp with people and I feel like I belong there more than I do at my own home. My hobbies include combat, killing games, wepons, and monsters does that sound normal?. Anyway cheers to all of my friends even though they don't know anything about the real me.
I hope who reads this finds it's okay and I will continue soon
