fansite - woosan

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"wooyoung?" 

"wooyoung!" 

"wooyoung are you awake?" the male could hear the shouts for him, muffled by his bedroom door. but he wanted nothing more than just to bury himself into his pillows, block out whatever he needed to do.

"woo, if you don't answer me I'm coming in." he could make out the voice as yunho's, the male sounding as if he would definitely do what he said. but wooyoung couldn't bring himself to reply.

seconds later yunho had made his way into the room, finding wooyoung had buried himself underneath his covers. 

"woo you need to come have some lunch, you can't stay in your bed all day." yunho spoke to the younger male. getting no response as wooyoung stayed under the covers. he may have cried slightly last night, meaning his eyes were puffy and he knew that yunho would ask what was wrong.

yunho moved from where he had been stood, going to pull the covers away from the younger male. not entirely caring what he thought, he needed to get out of bed.

wooyoung kept a strong grip onto them though, taking alot more strength than yunho would have hoped it would take to get the covers away from the other. but when he did get the covers off, wooyoung felt exposed.

he wasn't naked, he was wearing pyjamas. but he knew yunho noticed something was wrong from his change of expression. it went from playful to concerned in a matter of milliseconds. he moved closer to the younger male. 

"what happened?"

wooyoung just shook his head, refusing to answer. but the taller of the two was persistent. "you're going to tell me whats wrong, otherwise I'll get everyone else in here." shit. he couldn't let anyone else know, he didn't want to.

"fine,"wooyoung spoke, surprising yunho slightly. "last night I met with san at the park. I wanted to tell him how I felt about him, but it turns out he doesn't feel the same way. I'm going to just forget about it."

yunho was confused, having not heard wooyoung leaving the house at all last night. but he felt slightly bad for the younger male, being rejected isn't the nicest feeling in the world.

"its okay woo, dont worry about it."

"im not! I just want to be alone for now please."

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{ 3 days later }

san had tried getting in touch with wooyoung, trying desperately to tell him what he said wasn't true. or at least what he seemed to interpret it as wasn't true. 

he seemed to miss the male alot more than he had before. feeling desperate, wanting to be able to talk to the idol again. but if everything stayed as it was, he would probably have to close the fansite. 

it wasn't something he wanted to do, considering how it crossed his love of photography with his love for the idols. but it was something he needed to do. not only because of this, but there seemed a large build up of malicious comments on the page. some being over his own appearance, but san had no idea where they had ever found photos of him.

getting through to wooyoung was harder than he thought it would be, but then he realised the male had probably blocked his number. 

calls going straight through to answer phone. text messages not delivering.

his only hope of contact was the fan sign he was going to today. mingi and yeosang both knew about him meeting wooyoung. yeosang slightly concerned because he had gone out so late. but it didnt matter now.

all that mattered to san was fixing his mistake. 

because what he said was becoming less true the more time went on. 

as has been said before, maybe you never truly know you're falling until you've hit the ground.

and san seemed to be hitting the ground.

hard.

feelings were rushing in, or were they? had they not been there since the beginning. maybe the butterflies he felt when talking to the idol wasn't because he idolised him. no. maybe he liked him more than he thought. 

but if he wasn't able to fix things, he knew what he would do.

break all contact. stop going to fansigns. close the fansite. leave the idol alone, that way they would both be able to forget each other.

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the fan sign came in quickly, wooyoung seeming on the outside to be completely fine. but the members could tell differently. 

he wasn't as loud as he normally was. he smiled, but it didn't seem as bright.

they got to the fan sign, interacting as he usually did with fans. smiling happily, brightly. looking out for his fansites as he usually did.

although when a certain male sat in front of him, his entire demeanour changed. 

san wanted to try to talk to the male, he had wanted to but wooyoung wasn't speaking to him at all. uninterested in whatever he had to say. breaking san slightly. wooyoung wouldn't even look him in the eye. signing quickly, san moving onto the next person, jongho, as soon as he was able to. 

wooyoung quickly smiling at the next person. continuing to smile for fans. san spoke to the other members normally, having nice conversations.

then the fan sign was over, almost as quickly as it had begun.

leaving the stage the members got into the van that would take them back to their dorm. 

"wooyoung, care to explain?" seonghwa was the first to speak about what had happened. in all their time together, he had never seen wooyoung get so cold towards anyone.

"explain what? there's nothing to explain." wooyoung spoke quickly, trying to shut down the topic as quickly as he could.

"if there's nothing to explain then why did san look so sad when he came to me in the fan sign." jongho spoke, wooyoung shifting slightly. feeling slightly bad for ignoring the male. 

wooyoung sat in silence, not wanting to talk to anyone. hongjoong just sighed behind him.

"just tell us the you feel like it." the leader spoke.

they arrived quickly back at the dorm. before wooyoung was able to run off and lock himself in his room, jongho shoved a small note into his hands.

"what's this?" wooyoung asked, confused.

"its from san, you dont have to read it. but its probably best if you do."

the members dispersed, leaving wooyoung stood at the front door.

clutching the note in his hand.

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I am so sorry for taking so long to update

Ive been really out of it these past few weeks

I hope you enjoy! I should get back to updating more regularly now :)