Us

Him

I'm so lucky to have Harry. I mean the way he stood up for me when Ron was being a dick about everything meant the world to me. I didn't have a lot of friends before I came to Hogwarts and even here surronded by my fellow wizards and witches I still don't have many friends. I was lucky enough to be accepted by Harry and then Ron. Ooo Ron he just fires me up sometimes. I mean I could accept this kinda shit in first or second year when we were still buiding our friendship but by seventh year its just too much. He knows me and Harry support him but we can't always just take his actions without being angry about them. I mean he blows us off all the time and after this blow up during Transfiguration I'm worried how Harry is feeling.

I mean I saw his face this morning and during class he looked so upset. Ron hasn't just been ditching me but also his so called "best friend" for LavLav. Ugh I think I'm going to puke. Everytime I see them together its just awful. There's the slight pain from the fact that they're dating because if I'm being honest I still have a wee but of a crush on Ron back from before him and Lavender started dating. Its mostly gone away but it still hurts to have the salt rubbed into the wound. I've mostly moved on from him but still... And on top of that Harry. He always gets so melancholy after he's seen them together and I can't be sure why. I mean I have my suspicions, for instance he might like Lavender or possibly love her. She's obviously very beautiful she has amazing hair and a nice body from the way the I hear the guys talk about her. It would make sense that Harry would like her and then he would get so sad after seeing her and Ron. Oo it makes me mad that Harry's hurting like that. I guess we're in the same boat. Kind of. Harry seems a lot more keen on Lavender than I on Ron.

I have no idea why Harry would like someone like that either. I mean he's so brave and loyal to his friends not to mention he's very smart once he applies himself to his work. To be honest Lavender is pretty dumb only worried about the next piece of gossip always whispering to Pavarti. I hate having to share a dorm with those two either idly gossiping while I'm trying to work or giggling about boys.

Whenever I see Harry get all sad like that I try to take his mind off of the sadness. Sometimes I may get a little aggressive but anger is better than feeling dejected right? I just can't stand seeing him so sad about something as pointless as Lavender Brown. Or girls for that matter. After Ron rushed out of Transfiguration Harry and I spent the day together. I think he was trying to,cheer me up because Ron's words may have hit me a little bit more than they djd Harry. It's just they're my only real friends. They're are the two people I'm closest to and to hear Ron say things like that about our friendship makes it seem less important to him than it is to me.

Later that night, while Hermione was studying on her bed she secretly listened to Pavarti and Lavender when she heard her name mentioned in there whispers. She wished they had had the decency to at least put a silencing charm around their beds but they hadn't. Hermione only caught some of what they were saying but it was enough.
"I mean she's always trailing after Ron and Harry "
"They obviously only keep her around for her encyclopedia of a head"
"Definetly not her face thats for sure"
All of this was followed by whispered laughing.
"Shshs be quiet Lav we don't want her to hear now do we?"
Hermiones felt like crying. But she wasn't. She would not cry because these stupid idiots she calls dorm mates values looks over knowledge when clearly knwledge is more useful.
But maybe people would like me if I'm less of a book worm. I mean Snape has been calling me a know it all since first year. Maybe I am just a book to Ron and Harry.
Hermione fell into a restless sleep only slightly waking when she heard Lavender sneak out to apparently go see "Won Won".
--------------------------------------------------------------- Hermione awoke to giggles. It was still dark outside and cast a tempus charm and saw that it was around two in the morning.
"Pavarti it was wonderful. Ron is just so fantastic. It was a little awkward doing it with his dorm mates there but it was amazing" Lavender let out a huge sigh and a giggle. She then told Pavarti she was off to bed to get her so called "beauty sleep". After that there was no way Hermione was getting back to sleep. With her unease with her friendships and now Ron and Lavenders relationship development she made her way down to the common room and tried to pick up a book and read but she soon became too distracted with her thoughts to absorb any of the information her eyes were glazing over.

Not good enough for Harry and Ron. Just and encyclopedia. Too ugly. Not social enough for friends. Too much of a know it all. All of these thought just started swirling around in her head and there was no way to ignore them now. In the silence of the early morning. Soon she was crying. Silently but her body was shaking just as bad. She was so wrapped up in her self doubt that she didn't notice someone come down the stairs with a worried expression on their face until he slightly tapped her shoulder.

"Mione...." Harry said softly trying not to scare her "Mione" he said a tad louder which seemed to get her out of the unresponsive state she was previously in.
"Oh!" She jumped slightly and hastily wiped her tear stained cheeks with her hand. "Umm.. Hey Harry. What are you doing up so late. I mean I guess by now its early in the morning so the better question would be what are you doing up so early" Harry just smiled at his friend while she rambled. Merlin even while she's upset, shes beautiful Harry thought. Harry realized Hermione had stopped talking and was giving him an odd look. "What is it?" He asked
"Did you just say I'm beautiful? I mean I probably just heard you wrong but..."
Well this is awward Harry thought while his face turned red. Merlin he was such an idiot. "Uhhh well yeah I mean I always think your pretty but uhhhh.... The bigger question here is why your were crying"
Hermione proceeded to tell Harry about what Pavarti and Lavender had said earlier and then awkwardly about the development in Ron and Lavenders relationship.
How could Hermione believe any of that stuff was true. I mean yeah we ask her lots of questions for homework and essays but that's because shes so smart and she explains things better than the professors most of the time. Learning from Hermions just made learning easier for Harry. And the ugly comments. I mean shes gorgeous. Shes beautiful inside and out. And while shes not as flashy as Lavender or Pavarti she has a simple kind of beauty that Harry personally finds very attractive. Harry told her all of this and about how much he truly valued her friendship. He told her that she was pretty inside and out but left out the extra stuff. Just so he didn't weird her out or think Harry was creepy.
"Also, I unfortunately know first hand about Ron and Lavenders "new" development" Harry said with a sigh. "Ron was always shoddy with his silencing spells" That made Hermione giggle at Harry's misfortune. Harry did not however tell her the other reason he had woken up. He had had a wonderful dream. One that a best friend should definetly not be having about his best friend.
"Thank you Harry. I'm so glad you came into the common room otherwise I'd have been absolutely miserable" They ended up just sitting on the couch in front of the fire for the rest of the night leaving each other to their own thoughts.
Merlin she's so close I can smell that wonderful mint shampoo she uses and her hair is tickling my nose but I think shes falling asleep so I won't say anything. And now her head is falling onto my shoulder. Maybe I'll just rest my eyes for a while it is very comfortable here in front of the fire.

I can't believe what Harry said I mean that was just so nice of him. I really needed him to confirm our friendship. I dont know what I'd do without him. I mean he's my rock. Whenever Ron and I get into a fight its Harry who ends up bringing us back together as the famous "Golden Trio". Its very comfortable in front of the fire. I'm just gonna rest my head here for a moment I'm sure Harry won't mind too much. Even with the fire I'm a little cold normally,but with Harry here I'm perfectly fine. Hes basically a human furnace. Hmm. I wonder what that smell is. Its a really good smell like sandalwood and maybe outside a little bit. Its so Harry though. Hmmm this is very comfortable.