Deep Breaths Aspen

~one~

Aspens POV

~September 1st~
3:23 am

Deep breaths Aspen, deep breaths.

That's what I've been repeating to myself every night for 2 years now. Ever since my parents started to hurt me, nothing has ever felt the same as it did when I was younger.

I make my way over to my bathroom and open up my white cupboards and I pull out my black switchblade crusted in rust colored dried out blood, I run it against my cold skin, every time I get a panic attack in the night I make a cut.

11 panic attacks in one week, new record.

It's always the same routine every night, like a play in a sport: 3:23 wake up in a puddle of cold sweat, 3:26 go to the bathroom, etc.

I pulled my phone out of the charger that was on my nightstand and I look through my Instagram.

"Chloe Harper, looks like a slut like always."
I scroll past the picture
" Becca Randolph. Two timing bitch." I scroll past her picture if there was a dislike button all of these girls would get it.

Becca and I used to be friends back in grade school but when we got to high school everything changed about. She started to wear crop tops, short shorts, and got a few ear piercings. Me being the geek-nerd I am I am still wearing my AC/DC shirt and my black ripped jeans, nothing new has changed since grade school.

I checked the time, 4:37. Great almost an hour has passed and I starting the day with a panic attack and seeing a picture of my old best friend.

I was bored out of my mind so I decided to text my newest friend Avery.

Aspen: u up?
Avery: bitch it 4:40 in the morning what do you want??
Aspen: I woke up in the middle of the night and I got bored.
Avery: alright, get some sleep. Ly ❤️
Aspen: ly too ❤️

Click.

I turned off my phone and tried to go back to sleep.

5:47

BANG!

I bolt up in my bed, the shattered glass of a beer bottle scatters on my floor. A dark shadow stands in my door frame, I start to freak out. The last thing I saw was a hand approaching my pale face.

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A/N: hey guys! This is my first story. Please tell me what you think in the comments if I should continue. I also need some of requests for some of Aspens classmates at school. Like there name, description, personality, relationship to Aspen! Thank you so much.🌻