Chapter One

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Kate couldn't understand how they had managed to get into this situation, standing in front of each other completely naked, with a whole group of people watching them from behind a two way glass.
They had been investigating an underground voyeuristic sex club that was getting out of control. Some women had been forced to participate and were coming out to the police and media, only to be silenced in a violent murder that looked like something out of a zombie apocalypse.
Naturally, Castle had been bouncing off the walls with theories and was driving Beckett and the boys mad. Following up a lead, Castle and Beckett went to talk to an informant, only for them to be jumped and knocked out.
When they came to, they were in a room with plain white walls, completely bare of any furniture except for a bed up against the wall in the middle of the room. Beckett looked around wide eyed, trying to assess where she was and how she got there. Seeing the glass and feeling Castle next to her, she realised where she was and who was behind the two way glass. A small buzz came filled the room before a staticky beep that could only come from a PA system.
"Don't bother trying to figure out where you are. You can't get out until you complete the deed."
"What deed?" Castle asked, coming to.
"You know perfectly well. You came here looking for sex and now it is the only thing that will set you free. You will not be released until we are satisfied with your show." The intercom clicked off and Castle and Beckett looked at each other in disbelief at the situation they had gotten themselves into.
"Beck..."
"No!" She said firmly.
"Kate..." He tried again.
"No, we are not going to do it. I don't care what they say. I am not going to let some perverts get off watching..." She couldn't even finish the sentence as a shiver went down her spine.
"You think this is how I want it to go. I want us to be willing and completely alone but what are our other options here?" He asked. Beckett bit her lip and looked down at her hands, wringing them nervously. "Maybe we can make it look like we're having sex but not actually do it?" He whispered. But just as he said it, a voice came over the PA again.
"In order to get out, we need to witness visual confirmation of penetration." Beckett's eyes widened as she heard this and looked over at Castle with fear.
"I promise I'll get it over with as fast as possible and put on a show for them. Just make a lot of noise. Like an actor on a porn shoot." He tried to joke.
"Great, that makes me feel loads better." She bit back sarcastically, punching him in the arm.
"Ow!" He winced, clutching his arm.
"Oh, shut up you big baby. It didn't hurt." She bit back, turning her back to him.
"Listen..." He said awkwardly. "If we want to get out of this, we need to get things... Started." Beckett looked at him over her shoulder and glared at him for ever suggesting such a thing. "I won't make you do anything." He reassured her, putting his hands up in surrender. "I can get myself... Ready. And I'll try and make this as painless as possible." Castle finished, putting his hand over hers, which she looked down at for a few moments before pulling it away and turning her back on him again. "I don't want it to happen like this just as much as you. And nothing I say can express how sorry I am."
"I know, Castle." She whispered back, her voice wavering.
"Please don't think bad of me for this, Kate." He whispered, his voice also wavering, ladened with emotion. Taking a deep shaky breath, Castle stood up on the bed and unbuckled and unbuttoned his pants, pulling the zipper down and shimmying his pants down to his knees, taking himself into his hand guiltily, trying to ignore his conscience screaming at him that this was wrong on so many levels. He needed to do this for them to get out. He tried to stay as quiet as possible, trying to be as quiet as possible with his strokes to make the situation less awkward. Struggling morally to get himself hard, he got himself as hard as he could before he awkwardly looked over his shoulder and cleared his throat.
"Kate, I'm... Ah..." Kate nodded, understanding what he was trying to say. Just as Kate was about to turn around, the PA system turned on again.
"In order for us to visually confirm penetration, participants must be not wearing any clothing."
"Are you FUCKING kidding me!!!" Kate yelled, slapping her hands down on the bed.
"I'm so..."
"Don't say it." She sighed in frustration, scrubbing her hands over her face. Looking up at the mirror, Beckett glared at it and spoke up. "Dim the lights or this doesn't happen." She said firmly.
"We can't do that." A voice said over the PA.
"Dim the FUCKING lights or I will break through the mirror and make you do it." Kate yelled, getting up off the bed and walking towards the mirror threateningly. A moment later, the lights dimmed just enough to still allow the voyeuristic assholes on the other side to see, while still being dim enough to just be able to see each other without seeing the intimate parts of each other.
'Yeah, like that's gonna make it any better.' Kate grumbled to herself. Turning around with a sigh, she walked over to Castle and stood between his legs, him covering himself with his hands. She leant down and pressed her lips near the shell of his ear.
"You are to turn around and strip down. When you are done, you are not to look at me. If you do look at me, you are to only look at my face. I will make noise but don't think that I will be enjoying any of it. Do you understand?" She asked. Castle nodded. "And make sure you are ready. If you hurt me, I will kill you." Castle gulped audibly and nodded again. Kate took a few steps back and turned around, facing the wall, looking over her shoulder to make sure he did the same. Once she saw him get up and turn to face the bed, she turned around and, with trembling hands, started to remove her clothing.
"Stop." The voice over the PA said, making both of them freeze. "You must take off each other's clothes." Beckett's face turned crimson at the thought, but nevertheless turned around and walked towards Castle, seeing him bright red as well and slipped his jacket off his shoulders. Throwing it behind her, her shaky fingers began working on the buttons of his shirt, fumbling miserably with them. Feeling bad for her, Castle gently cupped her hands in his and gave an apologetic smile, moving to unbutton his own shirt and tossed it away. With an unsteady breath, Castle gently took off her jacket and tossed it aside with his own, moving down to tend to her buttons next, his eyes holding such deep remorse in them as he did so, keeping them trained on her collar bone, unable to meet her eyes. Carefully pushing her shirt off her shoulders, he tossed it with his, his heart hammering in his chest painfully as he contemplated what was next. Tears in his eyes, he mouthed a small 'I'm sorry' before he proceeded to unfasten her belt and unzip her pants, sliding them down her long, muscular legs, getting to her knees before he let her continue herself, saving her the embarrassment of him crouched at eye level with her crotch. Before Kate's hands were able to make it to his pants, Castle slipped them down his legs and kicked them to the side, leaving him standing there with only his hands to cover himself.
"I..." She whispered softly, her voice cracking with emotion. "I don't want them to see me." She explained, her chin quivering and eyes tearing up as she tried to hard to keep her composure. Nodding in understanding, Castle directed her to lie down and carefully climbed on top of her. Leaning down to whisper in her ear, much like she had done earlier, he told her;
"I'm so sorry, Kate. I really am. I'll do my best to make sure they can't see you. Just pretend we're the only ones in the room." He tried to reassure her, his hand tenderly tucking a lock of hair behind her ear. A lone tear slipped out her eye and Castle was quick to swipe it away with his thumb. He reached around her back, unclasping her bra and helping her arms out of the straps, leaving the cups in place for now. Under normal circumstances, the fact that she was wearing a matching black lace underwear set would have turned him on to no end.
But this was not normal circumstances.
Strengthening his resolve, Castle carefully pushed her underwear to one side and placed himself at her entrance. He felt her jump slightly at the feeling, her eyes going wide with fear as she looked at him.
"I'm so sorry, Kate." He whispered as he quickly thrust himself in, not wanting to embarrass her by going in slowly and potentially making her moan. Castle parted his legs slightly so that the people watching them could see he was completely immersed in her. Laying back down, Castle slowly removed her bra and threw it aside, covering her breasts with his hands. As much as he wanted to squeeze and tease and play with them, he kept them still, wanting to protect her from the view of the assholes outside.
"You know that if I had one, I would be wearing protection." Castle told her gently, feeling bad that that hadn't been on his mind earlier.
"I know. Just don't..."
"I won't." He said firmly. "But I do have to get things going to get out of here." He told her, gently thrusting in and out ever so slightly, letting her adjust while also working himself up.
"Enough talking." Came a stern voice over the PA. "Get on with it." Castle looked in her eyes, both their faces filled with emotions, his eyes begging her to forgive him.
"Kate..."
"I know." She whispered gently, her voice trembling. Letting out a shaky breath as her eyes teared up again, she told him; "It's ok." Castle closed his eyes and leant down to kiss her, only to feel a hand pressing on his chest, holding him back. "Don't kiss me." She told him. Castle nodded solemnly, understanding why.
It was too personal.
"Put your arms around me." He whispered. Kate did so until they were close enough he could remove his hands and she was still covered. Wrapping his arms around her, burying his face in her neck, he began thrusting into her faster and harder.
They continued like that for some time, Castle refusing to let them lay their eyes on her body, keeping her decent by shielding her with his own naked body. Even though Kate was repulsed by the fact that they were being forced into doing this and didn't want him to lay a finger on her, let alone hold her, she found herself unable to let him go, holding him tighter as she hid her face in his neck. Her tears disobediently leaked out and dripped down his neck, running down to their touching chests.
"I'm so sorry." He sobbed into her neck as he thrust into her with increasing speed. "I'm so sorry." He couldn't help but say it as he felt his orgasm building while she was trembling and crying. He knew that after this, she would never want him to touch her again. That the memories of this would be to painful and being near him would only rub salt in the wound. Castle resolved that when they get out, he would leave. He would leave her alone and never talk to her again. She deserved so much better than to be essentially raped for some voyeuristic assholes who can't get it up.
Getting closer, he increased his speed, a thin sheen of sweat building on both of them. Suddenly, the PA system buzzed to life again and white noise buzzed through the room for a while before a sadistic chuckle filled the room.
"I can see that you are close. So in order for us to release you, you must release yourself into her." Castle froze, his head snapping up, looking in Kate's eyes with a murderous fire. Pulling her hands from around him, he places them over her breasts before he sits up and looks over his shoulder at the mirror.
"If you wanted that then you should have provided a condom." He spat back. The voice simply chuckled again before continuing.
"How quaint. You thought I meant with a condom. How incredibly simple minded of you." He said in somewhat of a sing song tone. "You will release yourself inside her without the condom or you will have to repeat the entire act all over again." He finished, venom in his words. The PA system clicking off, Castle looked down at Kate, his mouth gaping as he tried to form words.
"Kate... I... I can't..."
"It's ok." She whispered, another tear leaking out of her eye. Torn, Castle lay himself back down over Kate, her arms wrapping back around him almost immediately. Wrapping his arms back around her, he picked up where he left off and started building his speed back up, feeling the knot tighten in his lower belly as he got closer to his orgasm. Against her will, her body started to heat up with his, getting pleasure from him as she sobbed quietly in his shoulder, completely and utterly confused and overwhelmed.
Unable to hold himself back any longer, Castle let out a small grunt, feeling himself just on the edge, desperately wanting to pull out but knowing he couldn't or else have to complete the whole act again.
"I'm close." He murmured into her neck. He felt her tense under him at the words, making him feel even worse about the whole thing. Clutching her tighter, feeling himself twitch inside her, he groaned again, thrusting manically into her, feeling her clutch him tightly, before he spilled himself inside her, muffling his moan in her neck as he did. He stayed inside her till he stopped twitching and felt himself start to soften, panting heavily as he lay atop her. He could feel her muffled cries against his neck and suddenly the whole situation and where they were came flooding back to him.
"I'm so sorry, Kate." He murmured to her, gently stroking her hair as he held her. "I'm so so sorry."
"After deliberating with the fellow members here, we have decided that the performance you have given us was not satisfactory." A voice came over the PA. "Therefore, you must commit the deed again, whilst remaining inside her. If you remove yourself at all, you will have to start again until you do it correctly."
"Oh god, no!" Kate sobbed, trembling against him.
"NYPD! Put your hands where I can see 'em!" They heard a familiar voice yell. Seconds later they heard shots fired from the other side of the wall. A few anxious moments later, they heard the PA buzz back into life and they both tensed, fearing the worst.
"Come out when you guys are ready. We'll be waiting just outside." Esposito told them. Letting out a collective sigh of relief, Castle squeezed Kate tighter before loosing his hold, waiting patiently for her to do the same. When she finally collected herself enough to let go, Castle rolled himself off her and sat on the edge of the bed, pulling his pants and boxer back on in one go. Standing up as he fastened them, he walked silently over to where his shirt and jacket were thrown earlier, collecting Kate's while he was there. Walking back towards the bed, he saw her sitting with her back to him and simply placed the clothes on the bed behind her before turning around himself to finish getting dressed. Castle waited patiently for her to get dressed, waiting to hear her step towards the door before turning around. Staying a few paces behind her, Castle waited patiently as she received her things from the boys before collecting his own.
"How much did you see?" He asked them once Beckett was out of earshot.
"Enough. We saw enough." Esposito replied. Castle nodded silently before following Beckett out and towards the car. The boys looked at each other and exchanged confused glances before looking back at their friends with solemn expressions.
When they got outside, Beckett was standing off to the side, her arms wrapped around herself. Cautiously walking over to her, Castle stood beside her, waiting for her to acknowledge his presence before speaking up.
"Listen, Castle. About what happened..."
"I saw how you looked at me in there." He said, making her head snap to look him in the face. "I was the person who caused you that much pain. I made you cry and I still continued to use your body to give myself pleasure."
"But we didn't have a choice."
"The person who makes you cry and causes you pain doesn't deserve to be in your life." He told her, his eyes unable to meet hers. "No matter how much I want to." He added quietly, his eyes slowly looking up at her while she stood frozen, unable to form words.
"I love you, Kate. And that's why I have to go." Castle stepped forward and cupped her cheek and pressed a chaste kiss on her lips; feeling her clutch his jacket firmly in her hands, then moving his lips up to kiss her forehead, lingering there as he struggled to let her go. Tearing himself away from her grasp, he stepped away from her, putting some much needed distance between them before he turned his back on her, walking away, not willing to let her see him cry. As he walked away, she stayed rooted to the spot, unable to move, forced to watch as he walked away. Her heart feel in her stomach and a lump formed in her throat as she struggled to keep her emotions in check. Inevitably, tears slipped from her eyes, streaking down her face, and on a shaky breath, she murmured;
"But I love you" while she watched him walk away. Ryan, having seen the exchange, walked over to her and placed a gentle, comforting hand on her elbow before moving to her lower back.
"Come on, Kate. Let's get you home." He said gently as he lead her towards the car.

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