My mistake. - a Vampire Academy fanfiction - (on hold)

Well, shit.

RosePOV.

'What!?' He whisper yells, probably because his sister is still sleeping.

'I said, I told you you wouldn't w-'

'Not that Rose, I'm talking about what you said before that.' he demands.

I look at him, anger is written all over his face, even his body screams anger.

'You heard me, don't act like you didn't.' I whisper.

He nods, clenching his fists. 'Who?'

I shake my head, if I tell him, his going to flip. I can't risk him attacking a moroi. A royal one at that.

'You better tell me.' he threatens.

'Or what? you're going to kick their asses? It happened, okay? I'll just have to figureout a way to get on with my life.' I explain.

Chocking on his words, his eyes widen. 'Their? as in plural?'

Yeah...probably not my best move there... instead of trying to come up with a lie, I just nod.

I look around, the room is still warm but there's a feeling now, a feeling that makes me shiver.

'Give me their name Roza, I'll take care of them.' The look in his eyes is a perfect mingle of pain and anger.

How is it that this man, who hurt me so damn much, can still make me want to hug him or talk to him for hours...

If I wouldn't be so damaged... maybe I could learn how to trust again, how to laugh and make witty comments, how to love again, how to handle my lust. because honestly? I've heard about month four being the super hormonal one... and I didn't really suffer any lust attacks. That was until Dimitri showed up. Every single nerve of my body is screaming for him. Touch him, kiss him...

I shake my head. 'Can you please just hold me? please?'

Looking worried he throws his arms around me. hugging me tight.

When I wake up I'm in another room, Dimitri's room. he took me here to avoid awkward conversations with Viktoria.

Walking downstairs I see him in the kitchen, making...pancakes. I love pancakes, it's just that my babies don't seem to agree, making a run for the toilet I can hear him coming after me.

After throwing up for a while..UGH. I feel slightly better.

I look up to Dimitri who's staring down at me with wide eyes.

'No worries, I'm kind of used to it right now.' I assure him.

I sighs. 'I can't believe, I wasn't there before, to hold your hair, to calm you down.'

'Well, I'm not going to tell you that I didn't miss hat too...' I admit.

'Where's Vika?' I ask. it's kind of weird to be here alone with him, as if we live together.

'She's out with a boy.' He huffs. I laugh at the protective brother act.

'You should trust her more, she's a smart girl.'

'I need to thank you, if it weren't for you, I probably wouldn't have my Vika anymore.'

I shrug. 'Others would've done the same.'

Let's make diner already, they're going to come home soon.

We're almost done with everything but I still have a few questions.

I cough a little and stare out of the window.

'So, what happens now? with us?' I ask.

Looking me straight in the eye, he answers. 'I'm not leaving your side ever again, I'm going to be a father for our children, I'm going to earn your trust again, I'm going to make you love me again.'

'What about Tasha?' I whisper.

'I like Tasha,' that stings... 'But I don't love her. I love you, and I'll prove it if you give me the chance.' he completes.

I think about that. There's no way I could ever turn this down. I love him with all I have. I'm having his children... but even though my body screams for him, what do I do when he wants to be intimate with me? After what happened with jesse... I don't know if I could...

'I'll give you a chance...and don't worry about making me love you.'

Happiness lights up his face 'What do you mean?' he asks.

'I never really stopped loving you comrade.'

Laughing he shakes his head. 'Do you know how much I actually missed that silly name?'

'I know how much I missed you...'

'I'm So sorry Roza, I'll never leave you again, promise.'

I nod and take his hand in mine. 'Do you want to, uh, you know feel my belly? okay that sounds weird doesn't it?' I laugh.

'Really?' He seems amazed.

'Yeah, well they deserve to know their father...'

'Twins, I can't believe this.' he kisses my temple and rubs is his hands softly across my stomach. the feeling of his warm hands soothe my body. Like everything is finally right.

~_~_~

Looking into the cold eyes of Jesse Zeklos, I never felt more scared before...why should I be afraid of him? what is it that makes me feel so weird?

Another boy enters the room, redheaded, I remember him but... who is he?

Next thing I know I'm down in pain, screaming and twisting.

lying on a sofa, Jesse coming at me... where should I remember this from?

And that's when it hits me. the plane. Jesse. the rape. No!

'No get of, stop.' I yell. being held down by strong hands.

'Get of me, I'll hurt you! Stop!'

'Rose.'

'Please, Please.' His body covering mine, it's happening again, in only a matter of seconds he'll do it again. Oh god.

'I'm going to fucking kill you Jesse, get of. Please.'

'Rose' the voice yells.

'Aaaaaaaaah.' I kick and scream, trying to ignore the pain waves.

'Rose, Roza!'

Roza? The only person who calls me that is not Jesse, it's D-

I shiver and shake, opening my eyes but closing them immediately. the lights are on.

I'm lying in bed, with a very serious looking Dimitri.

'What happened?' I ask, confused.

'Why don't you tell me? The boy, the one who r- violated you, was it Jesse? Jesse Zeklos?' He asks.

'What? no, uh, I mean, uh.'

Shit.

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