Reborn [Error!Sans fanfic] [Fgod]

Chapter 5

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Bliss slowly opened his eyes, he couldn't remember when he fell asleep, actually he didn't need to sleep so it was weird that he even fell asleep in the first place.

The first thing he saw when he fully opened his eyes was the color white. The Anti-void. His soul jumped, hitting against his ribs. He tried to jump to his feet and get out of there, he needed to hide from Fate, but his body didn't move, instead only his small hands were reaching up. Only then did he remember what had happened to him after he jumped into the VOID.

He was laying on his back and above him was a white ceiling that he could now tell it was solid and not endless like the Anti-void.

'...Right, I'm free now.'

'Freedom' did he even understand that concept? He wanted to laugh at his own naivety.

'Freedom means you can do whatever you want to do, without being forced by others to do what you hate to do.' Bliss remembered what Blue had told him a long time ago in the Anti-void, -that was before Blue began glitching and Bliss had to send him back to his AU.- Bliss had explained to the small Sans the reason he had to destroy, and Blue began talking about how unfair it was and that everyone deserves freedom.

He has freedom, now what?

He then remembered Blue's next words. 'Do whatever you want to do! Live as you like and be happy!'

'Do whatever I want to do...' Bliss pondered, staring blankly at the ceiling. - What he wanted to do? He wanted to stop killing innocents, but he also wanted to destroy everyone that would hurt those that were his. He also wanted to make pretty dolls for the ghost children and be there to see their reaction when they found it. And visit Blue and eat his tasteless tacos again, without worrying that the others would kill Blue for even talking to him. And to be able to visit OuterTale again and watch the stars with all his family members. - As he was listing everything he wanted, Bliss began to realize that he was more greedy than he had originally thought.

He had freedom now, but what was he supposed to do with it? He didn't have a family to protect anymore, he could never eat Blue's tacos again, or play with Nightmare again, he could never see the gang either. He thought that by being free he would automatically also be happy, just like Blue said. But he didn't feel any different, perhaps the only difference was that now he didn't have anything to protect anymore. He felt empty, and he was sure as hell this was not what happiness was supposed to fell like.

'...What even is happiness.' He felt stupid for wanting something he didn't even understand. He had once asked Blue what kind of feeling it was, but although Blue seemed happy all the time, not even he was able to explain it and could only say that it was a really good feeling that makes you smile and laugh. Bliss had laughed and smiled a couple of times, whenever he reached his limits or had a mental breakdown, but it didn't feel good at all, and his smile was so ugly and twisted, different from Blue's smile. So he figured it was a different kind of smiling and laughing. Blue couldn't really explain happiness, but the way he talked about it, like it was something amazing made even Bliss curious about it. But as years passed, and he became more and more broken, he had given up on those naive dreams, just like he had given up on feeling anything.

'But that damn squid had to mess everything up!' Suddenly he wanted to kill Ink again, but then remembered Ink would probably die by his own hand before Bliss could even learn how to walk again. But that was not the important thing right now, he should first focus on keeping the fact that he is alive hiden from Fate and the whole Multiverse. He won't go back to destroying even if he has to jump into the VOID again.