Bruised

Chapter 17

!This chapter will contain violence and rape! Read at your own risk!
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"What are you doing here?" I asked with tears in my eyes. He said nothing, but came over to the bed and wrapped his arms around me. I embraced him tightly. He repeatedly said 'I'm sorry' over and over again. I had never known why he left or what I did to make him leave. But then it hit me like a ton of bricks. He thought I was afraid of him. I said to myself. When he had come towards me, I flinched and asked him not to hurt me. Why did I say that? I know Jaeden would never hurt me on purpose.

"I'm so so sorry" he said in a soothing voice "I would never ever hurt you"

"I know you wouldn't," I said while pulling away from his embrace. He looked at me and smiled. Cupping my chin with his hand, he had lifted my head up to meet his eyes. Then he leaned in for a moment and paused.

"Can I-" he didn't even have time to finish asking me before I slammed my lips onto his.

He put his hand on my hip and picked me up. Then slid me onto the bed, never breaking the kiss. I could feel his um.... you know what, poking my stomach. Jaeden then broke the kiss, and left trails of kisses down my neck. He then started lifted up my shirt, and the memories started coming back.

***flashback***

He threw me against the wall and started kissing me, grabbing and squeezing every part of my body. I tried to push him off, but that earned me a slap on the face. Then he started lifting my shirt up and kissing down my neck. I had no say in this what so ever. He lifted his shirt up, and pulled off my pants and his at the same time. I yelled causing him to slap me once more, he then threw me on the couch. I cried out in pain when my back hit the corner of the couch. That didn't stop him though, he put me back on the couch, got on top of me, and pinned my arms down with his legs. He took off my bra and started slipping my underwear down my hips. "No!" I screamed. "Shutup!" He snapped while punching my jaw. There was a loud pop and I screamed in pain again, and that earned me another punch. But, everytime I screamed he would hit me again. I eventually stopped screaming, and he continued where he had left off. "This may hurt a little, babe" he had said with an evil grin, while slipping off his boxers. I squeezed my eyes shut, knowing there was no way I could getting out of this. He spread my legs and entered me. I tried so hard not to scream. He wasn't going easy at all. I had let out a small cry, causing him to go even harder. Once he had his fun, he picked me up and slung me across the room into the wall. I could see him stomp over to my almost lifeless body, right before he kicked me in the ribs three times. Then he picked me up with his hand wrapped around my neck then shoved me against the wall. My body went limp, and I blacked out.

***end of flashback***

I started hyperventilating and tears were running down my cheeks. Jaeden stopped kissing my neck and looked up at me with concern.

"Are you okay?" He asked. I tried to answer him, but I couldn't. "Hey, it's okay. You're fine" he said worryingly.

"I- I can't do this" I said quietly. I tried to pull out of his grasp, but it didn't work. He looked at me with worry, tears were streaming down my face.

"Sweetheart...." he said it with concern, and pulled me towards him. I wrapped my arms around his neck and cried. He sat up with me still in his arms, and I wrapped my legs around his waist as he sat on the edge of the bed. He rocked me back and forward, kissing my head as you would a child, then buried his face into my neck.

I took a few deep breaths and lay my head on his chest. He still rocked me and rubbed my back, being careful not to hit any bruises. "You had another flashback, didn't you." He said, it wasn't a question because he knew the answer.

I nodded against his chest, "it was the first time he ever... raped me." I said the last part quiet, and I felt him tense up. "I'm sorry," I said.

"No, don't be sorry. Its not your fault sweetheart," he cooed.

I leaned back and looked at him, "I love you."
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Another moment we've all been waiting for.

To be continued...