𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐲 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

" 𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭, 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 "

☆Dream boy☆

Ship: imallexx x willne
TW: self-consciousness, self hatred

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"Don't change for anyone"

Alex

"You understand the process and the dangers" the kind lady had assured me, as if making me think bad of the process, which I understand, it's a lifetime decision.

"Yes" I reply, making no eye contact with her, staring into space thinking of Will, and only will.

we'd separated lately and I'd taken it to heart. I wanted a change, a fresh start.

"Ok, would you like to do this another day, do you need time to think because this is a decision of a lifetime" she had treated me as if I was confused and I was wrong, like Will, which I'd in a way loved.

"What do you recommend?" I ask, pretty much asking her to make the decision for me, that's honestly what that means, it's just an easier way of saying 'you decide'.

"I recommend to take the time to think on it" the woman had placed her hand on my back, I nodded at her without saying a word,

I left.

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I pulled out my phone on the way out, George.

"Welcome to the O2 messaging service, the person you are calling is-" disappointed, I ended the call.

I obviously had to walk back to my apartment block, which was a fucking joke!

I realised how many mood swings I've had since me and Will, which wasn't surprising but it was also a lot, sometimes George pissed me off or made me cry, he always comforted me when I was upset, which was really nice of him.

The crowd by my apartment was so cramped and overwhelming, even though everything was inaudible, it was so clear.

I finally got out of the crowd and walked up into my apartment, as I stepped in I saw George and Josh.

"Alex!" Josh has embraced me in a hug, he had heard about the breakup, presumably because George told him so he was trying to be loving, which was working, josh is one of the most caring people you would ever meet.

"Hi Josh" I smiled, hugging him back for a moment.

"You ok Alex?" George asked as Josh had let go of me.

"I'm fine, you?" I had lied, I didn't want to tell him about how shitty my day was, I felt too much, and I felt like I was cantering my feelings more than theirs.

"I'm good thanks" George replied, knowing not to point out how obvious my lie was.

"I'm gonna head to my room, I'll see you both later" I said as I walked down the corridor from the couch.

My mind was flooded with Will, I was bored and decided to scroll through our messages.

All I could see where red hearts everywhere, which made me smile, but one message had caught my attention: