Anakin x Padme (Two sides)

Anakin Are You Still There?

I fought with my half-brother who eventually walked away and got back to work but I realised that Leia was sleeping silently in my arms.

I then let her go gently and tucked
her in and sighed.

Well at least she wasn't in any actual danger... Except she is if she's with me... I don't know how she's even comfortable with me around.

I had to think what to do next. I need to collect my thoughts. I began searching for paper and a pen to write to Owen and his wife that I wouldn't be back for a while.
When I finished writing the note I realised how messy my handwriting is since I had to learn how to write again thanks to Count Dooku

It just occurred to me that since Mustafar I've really never looked in the mirror because I'm afraid of what to see.
Will I see a man of strength and power?
Or a man that should be dead.
For the first time, I looked deeply into it.

My hair has gotten darker and my skin has gotten slightly pale.
But the one thing I noticed was that my eyes were yellow but,

it wasn't bright as a normal Sith Lord should have. My eyes were slightly faded and not much red, like at all.

I sighed, at least I still have my looks.
Even as a feared Sith Lord some people even talked about it which is a real pain in the ass. (There was even
a psychopathic nurse. )

I left Leia sleeping as I walked upstairs to the door outside.
The suns started to rise since it's now morning.

I walked away from the moisture farm and found her grave.

My mother's grave.

I'm so sorry.
"I'm sorry for everything, I am not the son you knew anymore, I almost killed him and I don't think he's going to come back.

Please forgive me."

I then knelt down at the grave.
I remembered what I did to the
sand people and sometimes,

I regret it. But that's what happens.
Take something from me and I'll take it from you...

I must stop think like that. It won't help me get far. I was full of rage on that day and I compared them to animals when I was the animal all along.
"I'm also... Now a father to twins,
I haven't met my son Luke yet but I've met Leia who is going through a very hard time.
I haven't told her yet that I'm her Dad and I don't think it's the right time to tell her since the people who actually took care of her and was there for her, died. Leia doesn't need a Dad right now, she needs someone to support her though these tough times.

I don't think I'll ever be as a good parent as you but I'll try to live up to your expectations.

I hope you could forgive me one day. "

I knelt for a long time.

" Obi-wan is that-"
" Yes, Tatooine. "

"Home" Luke said with slight sadness.
It was clear that he didn't want this little adventure of this to be over so soon and even for me, for some reason I didn't want it to be over.
But I knew deep down, it was very much far from it.

"Obi-wan I hate to say this but are you really sure that man is really him? "
"Yes."
"Who do you mean Mummy?"
"Just- nobody, shouldn't you be
asleep? "
"Not tired. Want to find Sissy."
"But- Never mind, I'll let you stay up for only a little while longer. "

It got a little awkward since we couldn't really talk much as we headed towards the planet.

It took us fully 12 hours to figure out where they went.

"We should head for Uncle Owen.
We can't have a search for Leia until morning."
"But Padme! He is dangerous-"
"He was defending her with his life!
I don't think someone who left the Empire to save someone you probably barely even know will harm her!"

"But he's not the person you knew!"
"He is still Anakin, I know, and you know deep down he is.
That's how you found him."
"But when he'll see me,
he will kill me no matter what!"
"I won't let that happen."
"Padme! Are you even listening?
He's going to kill us when he see you with me!

Don't you remember last time!
HE ALMOST KILLED YOU!"

"Da-Daddy? Hurt you?"

We both turned to each other realising the fatal mistake. 
I had to somehow convince Luke it wasn't what he thought.
I don't want Luke to know that his Father turned into a monster.

"No, no, no Luke! He didn't! It was
Darth Vader!"

"But Daddy is Darth Vader!"

"No, your Dad is Anakin Skywalker.
Never EVER been Darth Vader.
They are two different people.
One loving, one hates."

"Is it the truth?"

"I swear from the bottom of my heart it is true. He never ever wanted that to happen. NEVER. "

Luke searched my feelings and I let him.

Despite his age he somehow understood.

He looked at me with a tear coming down.

Strong boy.

"Okay.... Mummy."
"Good, now take a nap Luke, please?"
"Fine..."

Luke left as he went to the next room to sleep. We waited for about half an hour.
I broke the silence.

"Next time don't say that in front of
Luke.
Sigh,
Obi-wan I know that what he did was wrong and is just unforgivable but I wasn't the only one to suffer because of his mistakes, everyone did.

But Anakin suffered the most out of everyone and you know it! He couldn't talk about his feelings or his dreams and what he saw in those dreams because he would of been expelled from the
Jedi Order!
That was the very reason why he turned to the dark side!

Out of everyone I should have been the one to help him...
I was the only one who could understand and talk to but instead I dismissed it. He dreamed about the same thing about his mother before she died.

Of course he would of taken action without thinking of the consequences.

And look what happened. "

"He became Darth Vader.

Padme I understand and I to believe it is possible to redeem him but he's still full of anger."

I looked down. I couldn't bare to look at him.

"But that anger is starting to disappear less and less.
There mabey still hope.

But still.

He still is a Sith."

I then looked up with a little smug smile and Obi-wan knew exactly what that meant.

"And luckily I know how to tame those... "

Me:I'M SO SO SORRY FOR THE LONG WAIT!
I was busy getting inspired by other Anakin x Padme fanfics I'm so sorry!
(I'm also lazy, lol.)

Please forgive me 😭