I want her back...

Her❤

She is my everything, even though we have split up and she has someone new my love for her hasn't gone away in the slightest. All day I just think about how much happier we would be if I hadn't opened my mouth because I thought it was better for her. I would give anything to have her again but I cant. The easiest hello is also the hardest goodbye, I guess that is why I cant say goodbye to her. January 4, 2018, was the best day of my life, I got a new girlfriend (which was awesome) but I had a girlfriend that I actually liked. Months went on and I was too afraid to make a move so she did and we got so much closer and happier. We were supposed to be 2 years on the 4th, I just wish I could take it all back and be with her again. My life isn't the same without her anymore, I cant even enjoy playing football anymore because as soon as the ball leaves my hands I start thinking about her and her new boyfriend. No matter what I do, or what I say, I cant stop thinking about her. She is the only person I have ever truly loved outside of my family. I talk to her and act like everything is ok but all I want to do is tell her how much I love her and miss her but that wouldnt do anything except make her mad at me. I dont know if she is happier with her new guy but I know damn well I was happier with her and I cant blame anyone except myself. I just want her to be mine again....