(JAEDEN'S POV)
3 weeks have passed and it has been as rough as ever, I slipped back into my old ways, I've been a recluse to society, barely been to school, drunk so much alcohol that I can't even taste it anymore and have lines of cuts all over my forearms from the harm that I have inflicted on myself. It was too good to be true before, of course I Jaeden Martell couldn't possibly find love and that's been proven by the fact that Noah hasn't spoken a word to me in 3 weeks. Every single time I attempt to talk to him, he just ignores me and walks off, it doesn't help either that the friend group has been split in half, Jack has taken Noah's side, Wyatt has taken mine and FInn is just stick right in the middle with no fucking clue what to do. I'm going to get some rest and sleep now, I just hope and pray that tomorrow being Friday is better then what the last 3 weeks have been, although deep down I know it won't.
I wake up the next day with as little motivation as humanly possible, I've barely gotten any sleep the last 3 weeks so I was ready when Finn pulled up through the drive. I could tell that Noah and I's breakup was hitting Finn hard, he was stuck in the awful situation and it wasn't fair on him. He didn't breakup with his boyfriend, he didn't deserve this and he was suffering just as much as anyone, without speaking a word to each other we both went to our classes as I struggled through the day. Until it was finally last period, it was a chance to talk to Noah, to once again plea for his forgiveness like I have been for the last 3 weeks. I walk into class and sit down next to him like I used to do, the lesson had basically started so he couldn't move away, the lesson went on and I could feel the bad vibes, the air didn't feel natural and I could tell that Noah also wasn't taking the breakup well. I eventually plucked up the courage and just simply said "hey Noah, how have the last 3 weeks been for you", he looked at me disgusted and spoke to me for the first time since the breakup "fuck off Jaeden, we are done, I thought I could trust you and you just let me down like that you slag, and also things have been shit since the breakup, thanks alot". These words were like a dagger into my heart, why did I tell him about Wyatt, he never needed to know and by telling him it's fucked up everything. The day continued and I could barely hold in my tears, I knew what I was going to do when I got home and it wasn't going to be pretty, Finn dropped me off home and the second I jumped out of his car, a fountain of tears came out of my eyes. It was truly over, I knew deep down in my heart now that Noah and I were done, everything, all the good times and memories would now count for absolutely fuck all because now I was back in the same position that I was in before that infamous party at Millie's house. My life would never be good, never feel success, all I could ever be is a gay, pasty kid with depression. I wallowed in my own self pity for about an hour until I knew it was finally time to get the razor out, I walk upstairs into the bathroom and just as I grab the razor I hear a voice from the door. "Enough is enough, I have had it with you cutting yourself every time you get upset Jaeden" I hear Finn scream from the door, standing next to him was Wyatt. "If getting Noah back is what it takes for you to stop being so pathetic then so be it, but I am fucking sick and tired of you going to this bathroom after school every day cutting yourself, drinking so much fucking alcohol that you pass out and having no sleep and going to school knackered". They were strong words, but at the same time they were the words I needed to hear, "I can't see you like this Jaeden, I just can't, you've been my best friend since we were 5 years fucking old and I won't see you waste your life away like this". "What's going to happen is we are going to stay here with you tonight, get your courage up and tomorrow you're going to go on a fucking date with Noah and I might finally get my boyfriend and bestfriend back, alright". I've never seen Finn get this emotional before, he is usually cool, calm and collected, but not right now, he was pissed and rightly so. "How am I going to get a date with Noah, he has consistently said we are done and that we aren't getting back together" I questioned Finn, "Oh Jae, you'll find that I can be quite persuasive". We spent the night building back up my confidence and getting ready to see Noah again one-on-one, "Jaeden, Finn and I will help you the best we can tomorrow, but the facts are that he is your boyfriend, we can only do so much" Wyatt said in a soft tone, his voice was dreamy, but the moment was about Noah and not even my feelings towards Wyatt would get in the way of that right now. I said a massive thank you to the boys and I got out mattresses for them to sleep in my room, it had been the first time that I had anyone over in almost a month and it was a good feeling. When we get up in the morning it is going to be judgement day and I will finally get my shit together again.
We all arose at roughly 9 in the morning, I quickly popped out of bed to start making breakfast while they all toke their time a bit more. When they both finally got out of bed I was about half way through making the bacon and eggs when Finn told me that Noah and I's date was going to be at 4 and that also we would be meeting at his house. Finn said that Noah only thought that he was going and not me and Wyatt, I don't think that was a great choice but at the same time if he knew I was coming over he probably would've told Finn to fuck off. We sat down, ate breakfast and after that was it was time to go to work, firstly they decided that they needed to do the best job at hiding the cuts and scars on my forearms, there would be no need for him to see what I've done to myself. Part of this process was picking a nice outfit to wear, I decided to dress casual, a nice long sleeved white top mainly to hid the scars, black ripped jeans plus socks and slides. I was looking fresh and physically I was ready to go, ready to slay, but that was only half the game. Mentally all 3 of us knew I wasn't quite there so they spend the next hours up until 4 just telling me to act smooth, take responsibility and move on. Both of them were perfect and really showed me that they were the best and most true friends I could ever ask for. The time came soon enough and before I knew it, we had just pulled into the driveway of Noah's house, my heart was racing, this truely was my last chance with him and I can't fuck it up. We walk up to the front door and are greeted by Noah who was surprised yet annoyed to see both Wyatt and I at his doorstep. "Finn you told me that it was just you coming over today, why are these 2 here" Noah said sounding like he was about to explode, "Yeah sorry Noah, there's been a change of plans and now you also get to spend the night with these 2 lovely ones", "oh fucking brilliant, come in you tosspots". It was the first time I'd been in Noah's house since the breakup and it just felt the same as always, we walked up his stairs into his huge room and sat down, it was pretty much silent until Finn had to go for a strategical bathroom break. There it was, the love triangle, Noah, Wyatt and I in the same room together, it remained silent until finally Wyatt spoke up and said "hey Noah please just listen to me for a few minutes". Noah just shrugged and Wyatt continued "I don't think you're aware of how much you mean to Jae, he chose you over me and you're angry about that, please for every in the friendship group just give him just one more chance". "Why would I give a cheater like him a chance" Noah questioned him, "because he fucking loves you Noah, surely you can see that, have you not seen the struggle and guilt in his eyes the last 3 weeks". Noah didn't know what to say so he just asked Wyatt to leave the room so he could talk man to man with Jaeden, Wyatt obliged and there I was, once again back face-to-face with Noah Schnapp. "I'm so sorry Noah, for everything, you have been the most loyal and awesome boyfriend that I could ever ask for and every day that i'm not with you it eats me up inside". "I'm sorry too", Noah said in reply, "it's just, you really hurt me with that and I probably should have given you another chance, it's just this is my first relationship, I don't really know how this all goes". I reply with "this is my first relationship too, wanna find out how this all goes" as I say this we embrace in a hug, it felt so real and genuine, I had longed to be in his arms again, I had been wanting it for the last 3 weeks. As we were hugging he could feel the scares and cuts on my forearms as my hands were tightly wrapped around his back, he pulled away from the hug and asked "let me see your arms", I didn't want to show him them, but I knew he would force he to anyway. He pulled up the sleeve of my shirt and saw rows and rows of scabs, cuts and scars from self-harm, He just burst out crying onto his bed, "I'm so sorry I made you do this, I'll never forgive myself". I attempted to contain him and calm him down as I said "it's not your fault, the only fault it is, is mine, i'm the only one who did this to myself, not you". I embraced him back into the hug and we spent minutes on end crying into each other, I think I managed to pull my Noah back, but I was still disappointed in myself. After a while as-well as finally containing ourselves I new what I had to do, I asked Noah if he wanted to spend the night with me in the most expensive hotel in L.A, obviously he accepted like any sane man would and we headed off to downtown L.A for our night of luxury. Finn dropped us off and you could tell that he was proud of himself, he knew that he and Wyatt had just saved the friend group from completely falling to shit. Once we arrived at the hotel Finn and Wyatt dropped us off and there we were, ready for a night away from everything except us 2 back together again. Once we checked into ur room, which was a pretty quick process we settled into the room, we chucked on a quick bit of tv and ordered room service. After a delicious meal we checked out the pool, had a swim and then relaxed in the hot tub, it felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders being back with Noah, it was like I had been freed from my chains and I was loving it. We eventually got back from the pool and relaxed in bed together, we were both naked and cuddled up together, I had forgotten how nice his skin was as well as how nice some of the other features on his body were. We had a great night cuddled up together as we turned the lights off, falling asleep in each others arms once again.
