Brothers

party.

"Y-you don't mean that right?" louis' voice cracked his anxiety  kicking in.

Louis had always been a sensitive person,  so when his parents died, things just got worse, he began suffering from PTSD. Which added to his anxiety problems.

He also had emotional and psychological  episodes and basically  relied on Andrea for everything, so when his parents died and he was diagnosed with his sickness, he had no problem  with staying with Justin.

The two had become quite closer over the past few years and were more like brothers and not just friends. And the ten years gap, kinda set the difference.

Andrea sighed. Trying  to free himself from the tension  that basically  chained him down.

"i haven't  had to use those in a year Andrea, i dont-" Louis tried the past year had been horrible,as his anxiety  problems and PTSD had him totally disoriented.

"bud. I know.."Andrea said  keeping  his eyes on the road, "just tonight okay"he said as he looked at him through the mirror, he didn't want Louis stressing  about, going to the bathroom all the time, he felt horrible  for making  him take those drugs, wine actually  looked like a better substitution if he weighed the result of his choices.

He sighed again as he rubbed his brother's knee trying  to calm him down, Louis smiled sadly at the gesture as a tear threatened  to fall.

"you can change in the bathroom  ill be behind  you"Andrea said as he pulled up at the party.

This time it was Louis who sighed.

Louis got in them quickly and came out side to find his brother waiting  as promised he smiled and Andrea  returned it,  taking his baby brother back to the party.

"Andy!"Allen called out and signaled for him to come,Louis tightened his grip on his brother. "it's  okay bud. I'm not gonna leave you all alone" Andrea whispered hoping  it calmed him down in the least.

"Almost thought you wouldn't make it"

"believe me when i say i almost didn't" Allen chuckled  as he passed Andrea a cup of wine.

"Andrea sipped and called the waiter serving the drinks if he had non alcoholic drinks."

The waiter looked surprised, but still answered saying they they had grape wine, which made Andrea happy  within  a few minutes the wine had come and he offered it to his brother who rested his head on Andrea's  Shoulder  as he chatted with Allen.

Louis soon felt left out,  he wanted to dance with his brother a bit or even chat with  him, they rarely ever had decent  conversations  it was either about louis' health, behaviour  or Andrea  picking  on him.

Eventually, after looking  back at the past year he started to feel like he was a burden to his brother and when ever he felt like this he cut, yeah self harm it had been going  on for a month now, and since he felt that  way again, he slowly  left his brother's side who probably  didn't notice and went to the restroom,  he rolled up his sleeve feeling lucky  that his brother had picked out a long sleeve shirt or else who knows how he would  have reacted if he saw all those marks on him,  he made three fresh cuts with the blade he always carried with him, taking few minutes  to watch the blood flow slowly as he washed the blood away he heard his brother's  voice from behind  the door.

"what are you doing  hun? You owkay?"

"y-yeah"

"you sure?"

"No-i mean yeah" great job Louis...

"I'm coming in."

Louis quickly  washed the blood off and rolled down his sleeves just in time as Andrea  walked in inspecting the place "what were you doing?" he asked playfully "wait did you wet-" Andrea said but was cut off by his brother.