QUIET MUSIC played from her old record player. it was playing some french music, the song was calm and very soothing.she held the glass of white whine in her hand and took sips out of the glass every so often.
she read over the thousands of comments that were left on her latest instagram post.
she was actually proud of what she did but now everyone is tearing her down.
this has never happened before. why is it happening now?
she had been crying for hours, thinking about how everyone is right.
she is spoilt and doesn't deserve the love she gets.
she finished her fifth glass of wine and her vision started to spin.
she let out a sob, she threw her phone and curled up into a ball.
i guess no one noticed how those comments effected her.
she was getting over everything but it now started coming back.
before luna got into modeling, she used to sit in her room everyday and cry.
she hated everything about herself, she was always trying to change herself and no one noticed.
when she got offered to model she first said no but her sister came over and talked to her about it and she finally said yes.
she felt powerful modeling, she enjoyed trying on all the different clothes and posing for the camera.
it took away her pain.
it's slowly coming back and she can't get away from it now.
her phone started ringing which scared her, she gasped and picked the phone up.
grayson was calling her.
she wiped her eyes, calmed her breathing and answered the phone.
"hey luna." his deep soothing voice answered through the phone. the sound of his rough tone made her calm down.
"hey." she spoke softly.
"i was just calling to ask how you were and let you know that we have seven more days until we see each other!" grayson excitedly spoke over the phone.
luna was excited to see grayson but she wasn't smiling like she usually does.
"wow it's so soon." she didn't have any excitement in her voice making grayson frown.
"yeah, you weren't counting the days?" grayson asked, he sounded a little upset.
luna knocked her head against the wall softly, "no i've been really busy, i am excited to see you though!" she told him honestly.
you're making him upset.
whenever she did something there was always something in the back of her head telling her she was doing it wrong.
"luna?" she snapped out of it.
"s-sorry." she mumbled quickly.
"are you okay?" he asked with concern in his voice.
i'm not okay.
say that you are fine.
"i'm fine." she smiled over the phone even though he couldn't see it.
"okay." he spoke but sounded very unsure of his answer. "i have to go but i'll talk to you later."
"okay, bye grayson." she quickly ended the call and felt bad.
she didn't say i love you or miss you. nothing.
you realise you are hurting him right? that's all you ever do, is hurt people.
she groaned and layed her head on her soft pillow, her eyes closed and she slowly drifted off into a deep sleep.
maybe tomorrow will be better.
— note
my life fucking sucks #wtf
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