By that side
I was laughing pretty high
Everything was right
I was feeling fine
Something felt irritating
Felt like my mind fainted
Everything was blur
And felt like I was suffocating
From the tears that were holding in
Because of the fear that everyone would know and feel like I am weak there plus still
I was not allowing the ocean within me to rage from my eyes
Felt like my heart was beating fast
Felt like my smile had a sense of grief at last
Felt like my shine to make me shine was gone
Felt like my breathes were fighting to be out at once
I was trying to charm everyone with my smile
I was trying to make them get distracted by my fakeness
My heart was sincerely asking me to let go off the pain
As if it was feeling like it needed a break
Can your face have a genuine smile with a grieving tear?
I wanted to get rid of it
I wanted to let go off that pain
I wanted to have peace to at least feel
Wanted to end this but was not sure
Never wanted to leave it like they did
Knew the pain, knew the feeling of getting deceived
Knew the feeling when u feel unwanted
Knew the fear when you wake up suddenly at night and feel distracted
It's just is in me now as if these feelings have captured me somewhere
I know this is wrong somehow very wrong
But feels like HOME today
YOU ARE READING
Silent Screams
Randomeverything is so damn real !! :( after a long time realized i should write something on the things that were written to be with me till death !!
