To Mom, Love Yoon Jungsik

The suitcase

Day 1:
Today, I pack and I am off to Canada for 3 months.  I am excited, I finally get to see my eomma's side of the family. We talked through Skype but to actually be with them. Stand beside them, hear them laugh, see their facial expressions. I am over the moon.
I am hesitant to leave father here alone. He's been extra moody because of my departure. He's been talking about eomma alot, he remembers her smile so clearly. The way her eyes looked sad and overwhelmed when he first saw her at the airport. That's what "did him in" he says. Was the way she looked at him.
I been envious of their love story all these years, listening to father describe her in every detail. Now i get to hear of how she grew up.

"Are you done all your packing?" Jisung asks peeking into Jungsik's room.

"Abeoji, you have to stop sneaking up on me like that. It freaks me out old man."

"Haha, You still get scared of the little noises that are constantly around. I may be old but at least I'm not scared of everything" Jisung chuckles.

"Thems fighting words abeoji." Jungsik smiles.

"Ah, not today my son. Today you are leaving your old dads side to adventure off. i knew this day would come. Raising you was the best part of my life and now you are off on your own. Where did the time go?" Jisung smiles lovingly at Jungsik.

"Abeoji, I am coming back. As curious as I am to find out about eomma. My soul is always here in Seoul." Jungsik chuckles with tears in his eyes. "You are all i know. You are home for me Abeoji."

"I love you son, I will let you get back to your writing." Jisung holds the tears back and leaves his room quickly so he doesn't see his tears fall.

Abeoji, still tries to show me what a strong man he is by not crying in front of me. I see his tears and it always hurts my heart. I hope he doesn't cry to much when I leave. Please watch over him, Protect him until I return.

My next entry will be when I arrive in Canada. :) JSY.... out...

Jungsik jumps from the bed and grabs any type of clothing from his closet throwing into his suitcase. Grabbing all his little bags that the nanny prepared for him.

Sitting on his suitcase and zipping it shut Jungsik wheels it to the door, looking back at his room.

"I'm going to miss home." taking long glances at everything in his room.

"Let's go, You will be late for check in" Jisung calls from the bottom of the stairs.

"ABEOJI DO YOU HAVE MY PASSPORT?" Jungsik calls down frantically.

"Ne,"

"I can feel your eyeroll from up here abeoji. Let's hit the road." Jungsik says cheerfully as he skips down the stairs.

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Attention all passengers on flight A-786 to Vancouver British Columbia and connecting to Calgary Alberta  Canada From Seoul, Korea. We are now boarding sections A to B. Please have your passport and airline ticket ready.

"That's you my son." Jisung forces a smile.

"It's really happening. I am going to Canada." Jungsik hops anxiously in one spot.

"Remember as soon as you get off the plane get to your connecting flight as soon as you can. Call me when you land in Calgary." Jisung instructs.

"Of course abeoji. I wish you were coming with me." Jungsik starts to feel a lump in his throat.

"Enjoy the adventures. Be safe my son. I love you." Jisung brings his son in for a hug.

"I love you too, Abeoji."

"Don't forget to stretch your legs, It's a long flight."

"Ne, I'm in first class so i think i have alot of leg room."

"Still stretch your legs."

Attention all passengers on flight A-786 to Vancouver British Columbia and connecting to Calgary Canada From Seoul Korea. This is your final boarding call for sections A to B.

"Abeoji, I-"

"You're going to be late. Go, board the plane." Jisung nudges his son before he can say anymore.

Jungsik trots off to the boarding line waving back at his father with tears falling down his cheeks.

" I WILL COME HOME SOON ABEOJI"

Jisung waves back and nods at his son. He watches him board until the plane is off into the air and out of sight. 

A sense of loneliness hits Jisung. A familiar loneliness he felt before Maina came into his life. No one was ever there to see him off when he had business trips.  He didnt want his son to feel that loneliness and made sure that he was here for his only son.

Jisung instinctively checks his phone for his sons text.
Son: ":)"

Jisung breaks down in tears as he leaves the airport. "Please watch over my son."