Love Me Tender

I cant say it.

Jotaro's POV.

I hear birdsong just past my window, it's an unfair thing for them to be singing. Not when the world itself has lost something so precious. Not when I am sitting, alone, utterly alone longing for my one true friend to come back to me. I want to feel his arms around me one more time. I want to see his smile, just once. Just once.
It's been 4 months since my old man and I set off to save my mother. We were accompanied first by Avdol, then K- him... damn it, then joined Polnareff and following his entrance, Iggy. I still can't say that damn name... after all this fucking time. It just feels wrong. He's not here, not with me.
As dull as my sense toward emotions were heading into the expedition... I feel as though a part of me was stolen. There was so much pain, so many deaths, the horror of waking up every morning during that 50 day trip will never leave the back of my mind. But at least I had someone to wake up to, someone who held me together so tightly, as if I were to fall to pieces any moment. I'm usually not so... emotional? But god do I miss that boy. Today especially for some reason, I can't quite tell why.
Brushing my thoughts away, I get up and check my watch, "6:00 am? Good grief." It is way too early for this bullshit. I head to the bathroom and run a cold shower to wake myself up. It doesn't quite do the trick though, I get out just as sluggish and moody as before. My mother is probably still sleeping, I'll go over and check on her in a minute... I hate to admit it, even if it's just to myself but that woman has had me more worried than ever lately. Since her stand overcame her body those few months ago I've been sure to keep a close- yet discreet- eye on her at all times possible.
I walk over to my mothers room down the hall and notice she isn't in her bed. it's neatly made, her blanket laid atop the floor mattress so elegantly, she must have been awake for a while. I head over to her window leading to the backyard and take a look to see if maybe she just couldn't sleep and decided to get some fresh air. Lo and behold she was sitting in the doorway waiting for the sun to rise, "stupid woman." She shouldn't be out there, it's probably freezing. I quickly grab a blanket and march toward her shivering frame, I toss the blanket over her shoulders and tip my hat over my face so she won't see my expression. "Jotaro chan~! You are such a sweet boy for your mama!" She is such a sweet mother I want to tell her but all that comes out it "shut up. It's stupid to be out here without a coat". "O-Kay~ mama loves you my little starfish", I blush and turn away quickly, good grief, this woman won't let up on those idiotic nicknames. I'm not a child.
As I make my way back into the house and into the kitchen, I notice my mother had left out a bowl of bright red cherries. Cherries... that boy loved cherries. The way he would play with them in his mouth was kind of off putting, but it was in the best way. I hadn't noticed until this second that I was holding the small glass bowl in my two hands. I hadn't noticed how I was shaking. "GIVE HIM BACK!" I swear I've never screamed louder in my life as I smash the bowl into the table, shards of glass jumping up and threatening to blind me. I don't care though. Nothing matters now that k.... Kakyoin is gone.