Mail♡boy

Chapter 2: What is wrong with me ♡

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I sat in my room, the coffee cup on my table. I glanced over at it and my face instantly flushed.

"Xiumin."

His name rolled out from the tip of my tongue. It almost felt like my life was complete. I couldn't contain my happiness, until I saw the clock strike 2:45pm. After minutes of me staring at the digital clock, I heard the doorbell ring. Strange I quickly got up and ran towards the door.

After going to the coffee shop, I missed my chance to arrive home in time to see Xiuminssi. I sobbed in my head as I missed the chance to talk to him and this time properly. Though it wasn't like I was brave enough to see him myself.

I reached the door and opened it and my eyes paused.

"X-Xiuminssi." I stared at the mail boy in front of me. He looked out of breath and tired, what could he possibly  be here for? He was still catching his breath and he wiped the sweat from his forehead.

"H-Here, I noticed you weren't home yesterday. So here's your mail, take care." Xiuminssi handed me some letters and he quickly bowed and walked away. This was all happening too fast.

"A-Ah wait...!"

"Yes?" He turned around my face was going to turn red again; my words are caught in my throat. I forced them out,

"Er uh s-see ya." He gave me a smile and waved bye to me. I waved back slowly and slumped down from my door. See ya? That's it? Out of everything I could say I said See ya.

What is wrong with me.

The only time I never saw Xiuminssi was on Sundays, since mail isn't delivered those days. I usually slump in my chair thinking about if I actually talked to him, what it would be like. I felt my face burn when I thought of the coffee shop incident.

He saved letters for me? Was it because he wanted to see me or or- maybe he just does this for everyone. He's so kind and hard working to be able to go to school and deliver mail.

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I've decided to visit the coffeeshop more often, not only because they have good coffee, but because I have to start making an effort to see him. It was strange that today after telling Kai about him that we actually met outside of delivering mail. Today was Thursday and tomorrow I don't have school, because of teacher conferences, but I want to see him again. I felt like there was a turning point today and I can't let it go away!

I called up Kai, not forgetting about how he might possibly know Xiuminssi. That wave was too familiar and it's not unlike Kai to easily make friends. He was one of my first friends after moving here from China.

So I talked to him over the phone, ready for the interrogation.

"Hey Hyung what's up?"

"Don't think I'm gonna let you off for what happened today."

"L-Look Hyung I didn't know he was going to be there!" Kai said in defense. Although that whole coffee incident was a pity what I really wanted was to know was why or how they knew each other.

"Oh well, Xiumin hyung also delivers my mail." I almost dropped my phone at the thought of my mail boy delivering other people's mail. Ringing on their doorbell and smiling at them. He must really give that sweet smile to everyone.

"H-He does?"

"Well Hyung he's a mailman what do you think he does?" Well that makes sense, but still- him delivering my mail makes me feel special. It's the only connection I have with him. I sighed and Kai gave me some cheering.

What is wrong with me.

"I feel like you're gonna be seeing him a lot more than you think Hyung."

"Really?"

"You see him nearly everyday anyhow and today you saw him 3 times! At school, at the coffee shop, and at your home. So coincidence? Fate? I don't know just don't be so down." I could tell Kai was really worried about how I was talking. Just earlier this week I felt like just being able to see his smile in the afternoon would be enough for me, but if I have the possibility to speak to him more... I have to take it.

I'm far off from being like Kai or Taemin. They are so energetic and comfortable to be around. Sometimes, I feel small for being quiet or accidentally letting my accent show through. I'm definitely too shy to even talk to Xiuminssi for that long, how can I have conversations with him without zoning out from those gently eyes.

What if maybe Xiuminssi also likes extroverted people. Maybe I'm too shy to be able to say anything and that would put him off. I have such strong feelings, but if he rejects me than what else could I do.

Well, good thing is I have nothing to loose because if worst comes to worst, I'd still want to be close to him even just as friends.

"Thanks Kai, I'm still mad you never introduced me. I'm going to keep trying!" I smiled to myself in hopes of raising my spirits. I hung up the phone and changed into more comfortable clothes. I walked over to my bed leaving my phone at my side.

Kai lives close to me if you didn't know and well I should've thought about him delivering other people's mail. It felt like he was mine.

Why am I thinking of that anyways, wow I'm already jealous and I barely know him. I want to though, I can't let our connection stop here. I stared at my phone, maybe I could ask for his number next time. Maybe I could talk to him till midnight. Maybe I would invite him over one day. Maybe I could ask him out. Maybe I could kis- OW!

"O-Ouch..." I fell off my bed and groaned loudly. I stayed on the ground and rubbed my back while trying to get back up on my bed. If you guys didn't know I'm a bit clumsy, and I sometimes fall off my bed while thinking about er a certain someone.

What is wrong with me.

I've tried many times to get him out of my mind, but- after experiencing so much today, Xiumin was constantly in my mind. Not that he wasn't from the start. His skin was soft and pale and just his voice filling my mind was enough. It was unique and different almost melodic. I started to daze off again, but this time I didn't fall off my bed. This time I closed my eyes remembering the way he smiled at me with his cute cheeks.