The Unexpected

Hurting

I was told by my teacher to go get something out of the empty class room down the hall. I was walking down the hall and rounded the corner.

My heart shattered. He had told me just this morning that even though we weren't together he loved me and would wait on me. Yet there he was. Pushing her against the locker. Kissing her like he'd kissed me so many time in the 8 months before.

I wanted to scream at him. Tell him I hated him. But I couldn't say anything. I could hardly think. I forced myself to keep walking and passed them.

I quickly got what I was sent after and went back to class. I wish that I could have missed all of that. I didn't want to see it. It hurt so much.

It felt as if I shattered. I smiled at everyone and to them I guess I looked fine. But I was broken. Torn apart. He and I had sex. We took each other's virginity. My body heart and soul belonged tobhim. None other than him.

After class I ran straight home. I'd decided I didn't want to see him the rest of the day. When I got home my from beeped. I checked it and say a text message frome him.

Where'd u go? I saw u runnin.

Home. I'm.......feeling sick.....
U ok?
Yeah. I'm fine.

I wiped tears from my face and found my razor. I hadn't used it in 4 months. I longed for it so much. Today was my last day.

I slid the blade across my wrists. Making deep, gushing cuts. 1. Then 2. 3. Then 4. I got to the point I wasn't counting anymore. Blood rushed done my hand while I lay on the cold flood.
U ok?
U there?
What'd you do?
Please reply

Just like in Baby Don't Cut by BMike I replied
I love you with my body heart and soul to death....

My vision was getting fuzzy and dim. I vaguely remember hearing him burst through that door. I could hardly see his face above mine. Tears in his eyes. Then I passed out.

When I woke up I was in a hospital. Mt arm ached and he sat next to my bed, tears running down his cheeks.

"I thought I'd lost you" he said. Barely whispering. "Why would it matter you have her" I said. "No!" He said "I love you. I'm using her as a destraction" I shook my head.

He took my hand into his and I relaxed at the feeling of the familiar warmth and sweetness. He kissed me. Whispered sweet nothings in my ears and then he looked deep into my eyes and said. "I'll only ever love you. I need you to stay alive. You're the one who holds my heart. I love you." I felt hot tears run down my face and kisses him.