STUCK. | seokjin & nayeon

아홉 ― nine

Gripping the fabric of his shirt, I continued to muffle sobs as I bury my head on his chest. He placed his hand on my head, softly carressing it.

I remember the first time I met them. I've already been eating alone during recess and lunch time for two weeks already. I don't make an effort in making friends since I don't really like anyone's company. They were smiling widely, wondering if they can eat their lunch with me.

I don't know why it hurts this much. It's probably my regrets because for the long time that we've known each other, I have never treated them as someone important to me.

Taeri's right.

I collected myself and lifted my head. I began wiping my tears and I saw Jin offering his handkerchief to me. I shook my head because I prefer wiping it with my hands but gently removed it from touching my face. He held both of my cheeks and wipe my tears with his handkerchief. After wiping my tears, he brushed my hair with his fingers.

"What's wrong?" He asked. I just shrugged. I don't want to talk about it. Good thing, he didn't ask anymore. He just followed me when I continued walking.

"Do you have a training today?" He asked again. I don't have the energy to speak so I just nodded. He glided his hand with mine so I turned my head to look at him. He just smiled at me. "Let's eat some spicy rice cakes..."

He brought me to some stall near JYP building and it seems like he's always here since the vendor know him. There are some seats so I sat there as I wait for him to get our food.

Jin surely knows his way to people's heart.  Jin was smiling warmly then laughs whenever the vendor throws a joke. He was also nodding whenever the vendor talks. I just stared at him, noticing how good he look with his clean cut, how his plump lips are always red, how expressive his eyes are and how mesmerizing they are when they pierce into your soul.  I cleared my throat.

Jin must have heard it because I met his gaze. My cheeks grew red, suddenly feeling guilty that I'm having thoughts about him. I diverted my attention to the road as I fan myself. Why is it suddenly so hot?

I saw a group of friends walking down the street, they were laughing and teasing each other. I just sighed to myself. Thet are so loud but atleast they're happy.

Jin placed my spicy rice cakes in front of me as he sat beside me. He picked one piece and tried feeding me. "Have a taste of it, they sell the best spicy rice cakes!"

"I can feed myself."I said to him. He just made a face. "Alright"

He gave me the stick and I took a bite. Yeah, it tastes good.

I unlocked my phone and tapped on the kakao application. There are still no new messages. I tapped our group chat and began typing my message.

im_nayeon
hey there's a stall that sells good spicy rice cakes|

hey there's a stall that sells goo|

hey th|

tap to write a message.

I bit my lip. What am I gonna say? How do I apologize? How do I make up with them? I lifted my head and looked at Seokjin who's busy ravishing his rice cakes.

"What do you do when you fight with your friends?" I asked him. 

"You fought with Taeri and Jiyoon?"

I immediately shook my head. "N-no, a friend of mine is asking me that question..."

He clicked his tongue. "Well, if it's my fault, I just approach them first and we'll reconcile"