Your life seems to be consisted of only this one person because it seems like hierarchy if you dare speak to only being.
The more spend your days with him the more alone you feel.
You become so dependent on this one person you have because everyone was pushed away.
You kissed all your friendships goodbye, and you lose touch with yourself.
Your boundaries go hazy as he pushes you and your values fade to obscurity because what he wants is what you want now isn't it?
Deeper into a rabbit hole you find it harder to smile these days as you can't bare to feel so disconnected and so scared to even test the barriers he's put up.
Longer everyday you dread having go through meaningless tasks and force yourself to do things you never wanted to.
Farther away he drags you from yourself.
He changes you to say
You wants this
You want that
Regardless of your stance about this...
It's all feels like it's closing.
It's been 6 months?
12?
You say you love them cause it's been so long and they've been here.
You've cried on their shoulder.
But why I don't know, but you don't who's causing you that pain.
Make yourself believe he can fix it and that if you do what he wants he'll be happy and that means so will you.
But you only fuck up your head, and you dissociate and can't tell when you are thinking or when it's his options and judgements in your head.
YOU ARE READING
For The Abused
عشوائيA story based on truth and real life things. You can't hide what's happened forever and sit and take what that person throws at you afterward. Its about time I get my turn to say something.
