"Yes, Jaden! Damn. I'll listen to the song." I say angrily.
Jaden groans on the other end, obviously frustrated. I know he just wants to yell at me. I can hear it in his voice. I had been teetering on the edge for a while with him. For seem reason I just couldn't stand him but he hadn't done anything to me. And thats the worst part. I'm being a jerk to him and he doesn't even deserve it.
"Okay.' He says before hanging up. I click on the link he'd sent me and opened the song Starry Room.
I feel so erotic, you know I'm a workaholic
If your fingernails are still polished you planning to go to college
Then we shouldn't have to worry,
But you live your life in a hurry
You droppin' out so it's blurry
We fallin' down in a flurry
You serious? you go through these periods
When you hang with these eerie kids it's hilarious
And you call me while you're delirious
And tell me how it's going
And then I start to get furious
You go up in your room, blaze in and light a candle
While I play Bella's lullaby while I cry on the piano
People question if I love her, just know it cuts deeper....
His voice reverberates through my head phones. He was right. All we'd done lately is argue and fight and bicker. It usually ended up with me storming out, seething mad for no particular reason. He thinks its his fault, and I know why. I 'd been playing the blame game for awhile and I was just now noticing, that he hadn't even been playing. He hadn't blamed me, not once, even though he had every right to.
But then a time will come when you'll go and find another...
Another? He thinks I'll leave him? Or maybe... No. Is he...breaking up with me...?
But, I might've been like 8 I had my first girlfriend
I guess I've been messing up ever since...
Messing up. He truly believes this is his fault.. I can't believe what I've done. I can't believe how I've treated him. I begin to weep as the song continues to play. I pause it immediately not wanting to hear anymore. I dial Jaden quickly his contact coming up as 'BooBear! ;)' He answers after the first ring.
"So you..." He started. I interrupted
"I'm so sorry! I've been such a jerk. Its just I feel like I barely see you anymore because if its not work then it Teo and Moises. I felt neglected but I should've told you instead getting angry overtime you spoke to me. I just...I don't want to hurt you..but I was lonely and I felt like you didn't care. I didn't realize how selfish I was being. But, Jay, it was never your fault. Ever." I spurt out , in-between massive tears.
Jaden clears his throat on the other line. He's crying too.
"I....love you. And I don't ever want to lose you." He said finally, his voice breaking. I smiled. that was the first time he'd ever said I love you.
"I love you, too. And you will NEVER lose me."
