-"What is your problem?"- Jaden asked after you ignored his 'morning babe' and turned your face away so that he planted his kiss o your cheek and not your lips.
-"My problem is you. Okay? Why do you have to be such a dickhead all the time?" -You replied slightly annoyed at the fact that Jaden was hungover and did not look too well after finishing a whole bottle of scotch last night on his own.
-"Oh so I am the dickhead right now, yeah? You know what always surprises me?"-he raised his eyebrows already almost shouting. -"How you can always just not mention stuff that you think is irrelevant, however, it actually is relevant!"
-"I dont think you have any idea what you're talking about."-You said trying to be as calm as possible because you really did not want to start a morning with an argument. But it seemed like your calmness just drove Jaden even more crazy.
-"Oh trust me, i do! you think I'm a dickhead when actually i've been spending so much time at home lately so that we could hang out together and have a normal life for once, and what do you do? You go to all those business meetings and you study all the time and you seem to have time for everyone except me!" -He was getting closer and closer to you, he was so mad it actually scared you a bit.
-"Jaden! You can't expect me to sit at home with you just because you tell me to! I have a life!" - You were hurt and very annoyed -"I can't make money by just singing and going to photoshoots and tweeting and posting pictures on instagram, I actually have to go to work every day and study and go to lectures...". -He did not let you finish, he came very close to you so that you could hear his breathing and said
"So you dont think that Imo working hard enough? Trust me I could be doing literally everything right now but I'm here stuck with you! I could just walk out of this door any second and already see about 15 girls who would love to spend some time with me and wouldn't give me some bullshit about how I don't do anything and how they are too busy to be in a relationship with me!" -By now he was practically yelling at your face
"Alright! Why don't you go then?"- you asked. You were surprised that you were not even crying by now, usually you couldn't handle arguments but this time it was different. There was a pause, a pause that felt an hour long to you. It was his choice to make now and you were patiently waiting for him to make it. He slowly walked closer to you so that his face was next to yours and you thanked God that you were stilettos that day. He turned his head a little and whispered in your ear "I can't". You were confused and waited for him to continue. "i can't, okay? I can't leave this apartment, I can't leave you." He was practically yelling as he steped further away from you, he ran his fingeres through his hair like he was frustrated. He walked around the room and looked really tensed while you just stood there kind of scared to move. "I just do not think I can function properly without you anymore. That is why I was so mad at you, everything was fine and I remember before we started going out you told me that you get bored of people easily and you push them away and we still decided to go out and then we fell in love and I broke down your walls and you let me in. And now, i guess, I am scared that you are building up those walls again." He was not mad anymore, sad, he was sad. It broke your heart to see him this way and you wanted to run to him and hug him and tell him that everything is the same but you couldn't. You did not know what you were feeling, you were not sure what you wanted. He looked at you and you could see tears in his eyes "please don't shut me out" he whispered. You hated yourself for just standing there but you knew you had to analyse the situation before making any decisions because if you do either you or Jaden might end up hurt. You closed your eyes, seeing Jaden crying was unbearable for you, you thought about it. You knew he loved you and he did everything he could to make this relationship last and he had enough love for both of you but you did not want to torture him. He fell in love with you when you just met, when everything was new and fun and fresh but lately all you could see was his disappointed face. You were tired of disappointing people, everyone around you seemed to be disappointed in you and as a result you became disappointed in yourself...a loud noise made you snap out of your thoughts. It was Jaden, you could see his back and a crack in the wall. The room was silent for a second, you were not sure what he was feeling anymore. You ran to him. You turned him around and what you saw shocked you. Jaden was holding his arm and he was in pain, you touched his fist but he pulled away. You said "i can help, let me" he looked you in the eyes and nodded.
He was standing with his back to the kitchen counter while you were washing his hand with a cloth. He broke the silence and asked "Why are you like that?" he asked searching for an eye contact that you tried to avoid. "I wish I knew.' you said. "I can make the pain go away and you know this, just let me." There it was, his hope, one of the reasons you fell in love with him in the first place, he hoped for the best. You knew he was right, he could make the pain go away, he could make everything go away...just the affect he had on you. You remained silent. "Can I kiss you?" You were not expecting this question so you looked up at him in surprise. "What?" You asked smiling a little. "Can I kiss you?" He repeated again and tucked a piece of hair behind your ear. "Jaden..." You sighed but he did not let you finish "Look, Y/N, if you do feel something for me you will feel it like you used to." You thought about it, it really could not get any worse so you nodded. And Jaden kissed you. You could barely feel his lips on yours, the kiss was so light, like he was scared to hurt you or to push you too far. It was nice but not long enough just when Jaden wanted to pull away, you put your hand on his cheek to keep him in place. He smiled into the kiss and tried to deepen it, however, you pulled away and looked him in the eyes. "I'm so sorry. I love you so much, I'm sorry you had to go through that. Can we please find a way to work it out? I need you." You looked at him for an answer and he just smiled "Come here" he mumbled and pulled you in another long kiss.
