What do you want from me ? (girlxgirl)

Chapter 14 - it's complicated

Andrea's POV

She just entered the store and smile towards Ashley. Her smile became a bit awkward as she saw me here. She came approached us and hugged Ashley, shook Peter's hand and she tried to hug me but i step back.

"why are you here ?" i asked her straight to the point.
"why ? Im here to meet Ashley, and never thought that you two are close, im glad that one of my family become close with you Ash. The world's just not as big as we imagine." she explained. I could see there's nervousness in her words.
"Family ? Im not your family, it's just your husband who happened to be my cousin, not that i want him to be that one." i said coldly. I don't really like sweet talking so i just told her what i was thinking and no filter at all.
"Andrea !" Ashley glared at me. And i just rolled my eyes.

"what about you take Grace to lunch, i'll be here to subtitute you, Ash." Peter said. I guess he just didn't wanna see me and Grace starting a clash.
"sure, thanks Pete." Ashley and Grace then walk out the store, and went to the cafe across the road.

"why you let her go with that witch ?" i asked Peter. I don't know why im so upset.
"chill, lil missy, they're both adults, and i know Ashley is aware that Grace is a married woman. She won't do something unnecessary."
"i know Pete, Ashley won't do anything to her, but that witch, what does she want from Ashley ? She just gonna make Ashley hurt even more..."

Peter then just smiled. And i don't know why i could see a relief expression on his face.
"you sure care a lot bout her huh ? Im glad, she's been really lonely after her break up. She's been like zombie, no motivations, like all her dreams just vanished in that instance. But lately i could see her smile or mad, and she showed more emotions. Thanks to you lil missy."
"you sound like her father." i said and giggled at the idea that Peter is her father.
"well she's someone important to me, just like my lil sister, you know."
"sister my ass, you like her don't you ?"
"ughh... Don't bring it up again !" he then pinched my cheeks.

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Ashley's POV

"so, how are you doing, Ash ?" Grace asked me.
"good, and good to see you around Grace." i replied as i tried to smile widely as always.
"really ? I thought i've hurt you so much...." i could see a guilty im her eyes.
"no, i mean, i feel like a mess, but that's not your fault at all. Im to blame, Grace."
"im sorry, Ash... And um..."
"what is it ? It's okay tell me what's bothering you, Grace."
"you and Andrea, are you both really that close ?"
"oh that little monkey, she's always bugging me lately, no offence, but well i know she means no harm. She's just a kid, but im sure she's a good girl." i explained.
"oh...okay.... But can you please make sure that she won't tell her family about...you know, about us..."

Oh so that was what she came here for. All she thought were her life and her family. Well, im just nobody. I will never come to her life, im just someone who she never wish to come to her life. I know my place.

"that will never happen. I'll make sure she won't say anything bout that. And i trust her, she won't mess with her family, despite her attitude and language were the worst but im sure she's a good girl."
"well then, i trust you, you'll never dissappoint me, right Ash ?" she's doubting me, i knew she'll never trust me.
"i'll kill my self if she let your family know, you have my words." it felt so hurt. Maybe i couldn't hold my pain, i feel like my eyes became hot and my tears almost falling.
"that's... Ashley im not, i mean, i know you or she won't tell my family, im sorry Ash..." she felt guilty, she tried to explain that she didn't mean to hurt me. Honestly, i feel so tired. Tired of blaming my self, tired of being sorry, tired of waiting, im so exhausted.

"trust me, Grace. Nobody will know about us." i said as i smiled bitterly. I drank the coffee i've had ordered. I grabbed her hand and escort her to her car. Im sorry Grace, im about to break more, im sorry.
"im sorry Ash..."
"don't be, really... please Grace, everything will be okay and please don't feel sorry. Come on, i guess Peter's busy, i should back to work, you too, right ?" i smiled reasure her that everything's gonna be alright.
"you're right..." she replied.

Before she leaves she hugged me so tight, and almost kiss me, yes almost. I said almost because suddenly someone yanked my hand roughly.

"don't you dare to get any closer to her !" it's Andrea who yanked my hand. She squeezes it.
"oh...umm..." Grace seems nervous, she doesn't know what to do.
"well, Grace becareful on your way home." i said in hope that she would just go, not that i don't wanna see her a bit longer, it's just Andrea is being crazy here. I don't wanna catch everyone attention like making a drama scene.

"bye, Ash."
"bye, Grace." i smiled, reassure her that everything's gonna be alright.

I glared at Andrea. She just smirked. Just when she was trying to runaway from me, i grabbed her hand.

"where are you going ?"
"home. Let go off me !"
"what do you want from me kid ?"
"i told you i don't like it when you call me like that ! And LET GO OFF ME !!"
"im not letting you go, tell me, what do you want from me ?" i gritted my teeth. Im so fed up with both of them. Im so tired, i just want both of them to stop messing with my life. My life's already miserable i don't know why they did this to me.

"i want YOU ! i want you to understand that she's just playing with you, i want you to stop hurting yourself, i want you to move on from that stupid love of yours, i want YOU to see me !" she blurted. I could see the frustations in her face, and her eyes became teary. I was fascinated by her confession but i became confused.
"i've been watching you, i do...i do care so much about you, why don't you undertand it, you really STUPID SUPER IDIOT !!" she added in half scream. Then she stomped away left me and my confused thoughts.

I was just standing there. I don't know what to do, what i feel, it's so complicated. Should i run after her ? Should i just let her go ? My body can't even move. Oh dear God....

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