Choices | e.b.c

Chapter 16

Jenna's POV

"What the fuck?! Huh!" The anger inside him rules. I want to walk away because of the fright inside me, but I reminded myself that it's my fault so I should not.

"I... I'm sorry Joel. We just—" I started to explain, holding back a tear, but the fright inside me increases as he cuts me short and shouted more.

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK ARE YOU DOING?! JOKING ABOUT DEATH IS NOT FUNNY! FUCK YOU ALL"

I want to explain. I want to tell I am really sorry. But he started to walk away from us.

I'm so idiot to think of this whole prank!

"He just needs space" Erick said beside me. "Caught off guard"

Still.

He is hurt.

"We can make a great team in acting. We are very good" he tries to lighten the mood, but all I can do is to smile briefly. I'm guilty. He is right, we shouldn't play jokes about losing someone.

We all reached the sign in the middle and I think of an idiot prank to Joel. I played dead while Rich, Chris and Celia informed them about it. Erick ride on the joke and closely locked in my face awhile ago. I don't think I'll forgive myself if that kiss happened. When Celia acted her role on the prank, she also managed to tell Zabdiel about the joke. That's why he isn't freaked out.

I'm so dead.

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"He still isn't coming back" I said, almost inaudible. We are now eating our lunch but Joel is still not here. I tried to find him earlier but they told me that he really needs space, if I still do it, he may be pissed off more.

The whole group is silently eating. They are worried also about the whole thing he acted but they chose to just behave silently, not wanting to add more to their nervousness.

I don't have the appetite at the moment so I have barely touched the food on my plate. The trip is now ruined because of my fucking idea.

Minutes have past and everyone noticed a guy walking back to our spot. Joel. His head are still looking down. He still looks like stressed out. But a part of me is happy to know that he came back, that nothing bad happened to him.

I tried to call out his name but he ignored it and walk straight back to the tent Chris and him are sharing. They look at me sympathetically.

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The sun is slowly going down. The darkness slowly taking in the whole place. He continue to ignore my presence as well as the others. He is still cold.

The boys started to light up a bonfire at the front because it is still cold at night. The girls is preparing the foods we are eating for tonight. Celia decided to go with the light snacks since, we all don't have the appetite because of what happened. The usual salads, barbecues and marshmallows is what we prepared.

"Girls, here are the canned beers we will be drinking later" Zabdiel intrudes then placed the set of beers in a cold box.

"You should put that there near the bonfire place, right?" Celia being the typical snobbier she is said while her eyebrows high and pout.

"Oh yeah right" he started to pick it up again.

"Just put it near there so that we can already have access to it. Thank you Zabdiel!" I said to replace what have she said.

When he leave us, I playfully glared at her for what she acted to a nice guy.

"So how's with you and the green eyed Erick?" She said that makes me choke.

"Nothing. I'm just happy that he is not being rude to me anymore" I plainly replied. "How's you and Christopher?"

She blushed at the mention of Chris.

"Chris.... he is....he is very nice and... cute" she utterly said. Aha! They like each other. We knew it!

"There's nothing wrong saying it loud Celia. In fact, we can tell that he likes you too"

"Impossible"

"It's true. The way he look at you intently like you are his world is enough for us to tell that he likes you"

"Hey girls. The bonfire is ready" Erick interrupts our girly talk and help us to collect the foods that will be served in the bonfire.

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Walking slowly until I reach the tent Joel is still in. I excused myself from the group to call for him. I know he will still not eat nor talk to anyone of us. But I can try my best to even please him to eat dinner because barely got eaten for lunch.

The cold crisp air meets my already cold skin. Making my hair sway from all over the place.

"Hi" I started, still not making myself free to go inside until if he said so. His eyes didn't meet mine making my heart drop under so bad.

"Go away" he said softly. I know he didn't meant it but the anger inside him is ruling badly.

Instead of going away like he told so, I take the last guts inside my body to bravely enter the tent, closing the zip so that no one can hear nor see what I will do. I'll make it up to you.

I caved his hands in mine, making the heat inside of us ignite.

"Look at me" I softly command him.

"I said look at me" finally he look up to me, his hurt eyes pours into mine.

"I shouldn't have done that stupidest prank anyone can think of. I really am sorry Joel. I didn't mean to hurt you. I know you don't want to see me at this moment but if it means you shouting me then I'll be glad to receive it. Just to save you" I sigh deeply before continuing.

"At first, I really didn't expected the you will be a big part of my life. You never fails to make me smile every fucking single time. You are always by my side. I didn't know that I am slowly falling for a man like you. I love you Joel"

I let myself be in charge to whatever I will do.

My hands left his and slowly tugs at his curly roots. His eyes met mine, confusion.

I trust myself.

Slowly, my lips meet his forehead, then his nose. I look at his eyes intently, but his eyes are shut closed. With no further ado, I pressed my lips with his, savoring and living the moment. I don't want this moment to end. His mouth softly claimed mine, tucking my lower lip softly as a feather.

With every groans and breathe we share, love and passion is in. This, all of this are worth it. I just love him so much.

"I love you too Jen"