Choices | e.b.c

Chapter 24

With my hands trembling in typing words on the keyboard in my phone, my mind is practically running all over the place. I don't know what I will do but thank God I found myself texting Celia.

Me: Celia.... oh God I don't know what to do.

Celia💚: What the fuck happened to you?

Tears started covering my vision. It makes it so hard to reply to her message. It made my heart ache.

I... I thought I'm over this. These types of things he still keep doing purposely to hurt me because I knew very well that he really don't want me. He disgust me being near him.

I don't know what I will do.

My mind heard something shattered but my body care less about it. I think it's my phone but responding doesn't on my vocabulary right now. My body became weak at a snap.

I'm tired.

The place filled with my sobs and tears. I want to shout so hard like he teach me before. But I can't.

I am so tired at pretending like everything is okay. That we even worked out what is between us. It is so goddamn hard to make myself believe that I can do this. It sounds so idiot for me to even hope that he will someday be nice to me in real life. Because that is all I'm asking for. It is not the love that we should have because of our fucking wedding papers, but the feeling like before all these happened. The open Erick. The friend I never expected to have. That is all I'm asking.

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"FUCK JENNA OPEN THE GODDAMN DOOR!"

"JENNA PLEASE OPEN THIS FUCKING DOOR!"

"JENNA!"

I woke up with people shouting outside my door. I don't know who are they but all I know is that they want me to open the door.

Who am I fooling? I can't even get myself up! How will myself do what they are pleading for?

Shock flashed through my face when the door came flying. Literally on the floor because they succeeded to break it down.

Celia and Chris.

"God Jenna what happened to you? Why are you crying? Tell me what happened please" Celia quickly asked with her face and voice full of worry. She still keep on asking me what the hell happened to me but all I can do is to hug my knees tightly with no emotion.

Celia's POV

"Chris would you please break that damn door quickly?!" I am clearly shouting now at him because I'm panicking and so worried about what Jenna texted. It is not even clear what she texted but I knew it that there is something I need to know. I knew something happened to her so I literally dragged Christopher with me to go on her place.

"JENNA PLEASE OPEN THIS FUCKING DOOR!" I shout ones again, hoping that she will hear it. But no.

"COULD YOU GET ANY FASTER?!" I'm red in the face and clear as hell that is pissed off because until now, he can't open their fucking front door.

But as soon as those words leave my mouth, the door slumped back on the floor.

"Happy?" He then rolled his eyes but I am in no shape to thank him either for that because my body swift quickly to go near her.

God she looked so drained.

"God Jenna what happened to you? Why are you crying? Tell me what happened please" I plead to her but all she did is tighten her grip on her knees. Emotionless.

"Would you please tell me now? Maybe I can help?" It takes every ounce of me to not go on and cry at her state. I can't let her see me like that. She needs someone who will be her anchor now and showing weakness and pity for her is not even close to good.

"Call Erick now" I command to Christopher but she responded quickly with a beg.

"P-please don't call him. P-plea-ase" her tears slowly waving again in the window of her eyes.

"He needs to know your state right now. He's your husband. He has the rights to know"

But all she did was shifts closer to mine and lay her head on my shoulders. That is all it took for me to get the gist. It's his fault.

Instead of pushing her more to let us, I just hugged her softly. While rubbing her back and chanting that everything will be fine.

She is still sobbing so hard.

She have been crying her all life and it hurts me more that after all these years, she is still suffering the same.

"Stay with me at our house for some time. You need to unwind" I states to her softly before kissing her forehead. "Need a hand Chris"

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Jenna's POV

I don't know if I'm expecting to be greeted by the rays of sunlight when my eyes opened, but nothing came.

"It's evening. There is definitely no sunlight now" a voice said from my side—Celia.

My head still dizzy and my eyes are really puffy now. My nose flushed as usual, but thank God my mind is now fine—I think so.

"Thank you" that is the first word that I successfully said for the whole day.

Her face shows worry and tiredness which is obviously because of me. She never get used of me with all my drama-like life. And I'm very thankful for that. She then sighed deeply before saying, "wanna continue what we should do?" With a smile so contagious.

I know that it takes all her guts to sum up a smile in front of me in times like this. She really never shows weakness whenever someone needs her strength and guidance.

"What do you mean? The club?"

"Yes. The club. Because you really need to loose yourself a bit. Have some fun. I know married life is giving you more stress so you deserve to be happy even just for a night"