Saving Mara

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"You want some, too?" Nic asked me as we were back at his appartment. He was sitting on his makeshift mattress, putting his joint together.

"Might as well" I answered, sitting down beside him.  I wasn't doing this often.  But the day started so shitty, I figured, why not loose control over myself for a little time?  As long as I didn't lose the respect for the pot, I felt safe. So I set myself a limit. I was only using it when life couldn't get any worse and grass was my only escape. 

Yeah, I know how that sounds like. I didn't like my life either.

It didn't take long until the weed made me feel completely calm.

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It only took about an hour until we finished casting all the models for the job. After Bob and I took a quick glance at the pictures, he let me leave the studio. I grabbed my stuff, and said goodbye to the lady at the front desk of the building and walked out.

I saw him there, on the other side of the street, sitting on a bench in the park across from the building I worked at. He caught my sight immediately and I stopped in my tracks. So he waited there for me?

Slowly, I walked towards him and sat beside him quitely.

It had been for years. Four years, during which my life completely changed. I know I wasn't the girl I was when I was sixteen anymore. But his presence, just his scent alone made me remember all the feelings I felt for him and the memories we shared.

There was a moment of silence between us, until he finally spoke up.

"So you moved here? After you left, I mean. You came to Hamburg?" He asked, still looking straight forward, his eyebrows slightly narrowed. 

I watched him carefully, pressing my hands between my knees uncomfortably. "Yeah, I did. Betty took me in after you know... what happened. She was nice to me. She brought me here, so I could start out new. She gave me a second chance. She... made sure, that I would, uhm, graduate properly...so that I could go to uni" I rambled.

I wanted to explain. I wanted to tell him what happened. After all this time, he was the only thing that I regretted to have left behind. That boy meant the world to me. But I didn't see another choice at that time. And in all these four years, he was the only thing I missed terribly.

He hesitated before he said something else. I could see that he struggled to find the right words.

"I..honestly don't know what to say, Mara" he said, finally turning his head to look at me.

"It has been so long. And I... tried so long to find an answer to why you... just left. Without saying anything. Without saying goodbye to me. You didn't tell anyone. One day, I was sitting beside your hospital bed, worrying over you, and the next, you were just gone."He breathed hard, looking so intentely into my eyes.

"God, I can't believe you're here." he said.

At this point, I found it really hard to remain eye contact. I looked down to my hands before I answered. "I'm so sorry, Max. I never meant foy any of that to happen. I'm sorry I dragged you into all that shit. I didn't want to hurt you, Max. So I left. I figured that it was the only solution to the mess that was my life"

I was scared to look back at him. 

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