Children Of The Sky (The Scripts Of Neptune, Book 2)

Author's Note/Life Update Thing

Greetings, greetings, grab a chair and have a seat. I have some stories to tell about the stories I haven't been telling.

You may have noticed a distinct lack of updates in the last...oh, year or so? Something like that. I've been averaging about a chapter a month. Long time, right? Longer when it's only 3,000 words each time, give or take a bit. It's...kind of a change from last year, and the year before. I'm here with an apology and some explanations, as well as news and a smol update on how life has changed for me in the past six months. 

Reason one: I started public school in September for the first time in my life and it's been a major adjustment. Culture shock is like a sucker punch in non-physical muscles you didn't know you had.

Reason two: My computer is 10 years old and generally doesn't work very well

Reason three: I got a phone and I hate writing on it, but I spend all my online time on it, so I almost never write (it's dumb I know)

Reason four: Depression (which I finally got a formal, if unspecified, diagnosis for last Monday) has been kicking my butt. Ever felt emotionally numb, like the world is tasteless and colorless and generally dull? Yeah. That's been probably 80% of the time for me lately. Could be worse, but it could be a whole lot better too. Anxiety's been a kicker too. I'm working on it, though, so there's hope yet *finger guns*

Reason five: p r o c r a s t i n a t i o n (entirely my fault I can't really blame anything for this)

Reason six: Aforementioned apathy and school have sucked the life from my motivation and creativity. I'm preoccupied, which means I don't think about my stories with much passion, which sucks because I used to adore my stories and I want that back. 

Reason seven (which is more or less the summary of reasons 1-6): I'm tired. Really...tired. My mind is tired, my body is tired, my spirit is tired. I haven't been taking very good care of myself, or managing my stress well, and...it's taken its toll. A friend of mine recently said I seemed mentally exhausted, and you know how sometimes friends can see things you can't? Yeah. This was one of those. So I need to figure out how to rest, how to recharge, because this is no way to live and I'm a little bit sick of it. 

I don't know that means for my books, but I'm not putting them on hiatus or anything. They just...won't be updated often. Nothing much different from how it is now, I don't think. I love my readers dearly, and I want to give you good writing and storybuilding, and to do that I need to be faithful to my craft. I read a book over Christmas break that talked about something called the Resistance, a force that pushes back on creative work, and I can't say I've been particularly vigilant about pushing right back. I have a calling in this strange thing we call writing, I think, a summons to touch people's souls without saying a word to them in person. That's cool. I don't wanna lose that, y'know?

And so, in the immortal (yes, immortal, we've discussed this) words of miss sarsar14 :

Is it okay
If I stay
Unmotivated
Just for today
Because I
Need a little time
To make things right
Inside of my mind
Is it okay
If I leave
Just for a while
Find space to breathe
Because I
Need a little time
To make things right 
Inside of my mind

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(also check out her book the Deliverer's Destiny it's rlly good)

I'll be lurking somewheres around Wattpad, don't worry. But I need to make peace with this storm called life, somehow, if that's possible, and that doesn't really work very well if I'm stressing myself out about everything I'm not doing? Yeah. Anyway. See y'all on the flip side with another update. *salutes and vanishes in a puff of smoke*