Fearless // h.s au

Chapter 1

Alex's P.O.V

The moment Cece mentioned his name I knew my life would change drastically not only because he was coming here , but because that meant that memories were going to come back , which meant nightmares.

"I-It can't be..." I whispered to myself trying to process everything in my brain.

"Are you sure that's his name?"

"Yea, why?" Asked Celia . 

"I can't do this I'm sorry I-I I gotta go," I said whilst exiting the cafeteria .

Cece and Josh kept calling my name , but I ignored them and ran.

I ran to the bathroom , straight into the stall. I silently prayed this was a figment of my imagination , and that this was just a nightmare.  I left England to start a new life, to leave behind my past and forget all about it. The second I stepped foot in my new home I promised myself to change, to be better than I was in Holmes Chapel. What the kids at the school would do to me was awful; even worse what my parents did to me,but I can't change what happened. I can't change the past, but I sure as hell can change the future. 

It was painful for the first few months ,especially for a 13 year old to go through what I went through , but Sam and John, my adoptive parents, helped me by taking me to therapy, and that is where I met Celia and Josh. Celia was taken there for the loss of her mother in a tragic plane crash and Josh was there because of his night terrors. The problem is I decided not to tell them about me because it was too painful and I know it was selfish of me to ask why they were there and not tell them why I was there but it was just to much for me.

After two years , I was making good progress , I was getting better. I was able to put most of what happened to me behind and move forward. My nightmares became less frequent and I learned how to really stand up for myself. Now he was coming, I don't think talking to a shrink was gonna help. By the time I realized it I was already crying.

I silently sobbed, waiting for a few minutes to pass by. I stepped out of the stall and washed my face, thanking myself I didn't wear makeup.By the time the bell rung I was done trying to look a just didn't have a sob fest. I decided to go to the office and ask if I call Sam to pick me up. As I was walking out of the bathroom , I noticed Cece talking with Josh , not wanting to interrupt I hid behind the bathroom wall .she was talking lowly as if she thought I might hear her but luckily I was able to hear what she was saying.

" Oh my god , I shouldn't have mentioned his name. I knew this was gonna happen, John told me not to mention him when she is near but I just had to be stupid and let it slip , and now Joh-" 

" No Cece , its alright you forgot , let's just hope she is alright." Josh cut her off .

I gasped , wondering if this day couldn't get any worse. By now I  was sheding tears of rage. Walking past them and through the halls to the nearest exit , ignoring their voices and walking outside . 

Right now I didn't care what people thought as they saw me walk by crying  . I grabbed my car keys from my pocket and got inside. I drove as fast as I could. Once I got home I barged through the door , greeted by a very confused John. 

" What happened dear?" he asked .

" How dare you! You told Cece and Josh about what happened back in England?! " I screamed at him.

" Calm down Alex , let me expl-" 

"Explain what? Explain how you decided reveal the part of my past to which I wanted NO ONE to know about to MY friends when I specifically told you not to. You had no right to do that! Is that what you wanted explain? Well please do me the favor and shove that explanation up somewhere because I don't want to hear it." And with that I ran up to my room ignoring his pleas and yells . 

When I entered my room, I locked the door and was met with the face that started all of this.