Fearless // h.s au

Chapter 2

Life can be hard , but not impossible. But right at this moment I thought my life couldn't get any worse. Him being here made all the memories come back , memories I pushed away because I wanted to forget all about what happened that night.

" Hello love," he whispered.

"Missed me?" he asked louder this time.

"Get out! " I yelled, trying to push him out the door.

"Not so fast love, we have a whole lot of talking to do."

"There is nothing for us to talk about, so can you please get the fuck out of my room you ungraceful bastard!"  I screamed.

"Actually we do and if you want me gone , you're going to have to try harder than that."

" I don't want to talk to you , you're just gonna keep hurting me like before."

"I will come back."

With that he quietly left before whispering, "You look good Alex ."

After he left, I took a moment to sink things in and realize what Harry's arrival meant. It meant that I will have to face the consequences of leaving Holmes Chapel and coming to America. I left because I didn't want to face him after that night, the night my life took a whole turn.

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I stood in my room the rest of the day, not wanting to face anybody. Despite George's attempts to come in, I was too mad to speak to him. I knew that I should've told Cece and Josh about my past but it hurt too much to talk about it to even tell them everything. I had put everything behind me. I promised myself I would be better but that isn't the case.

After about 2 hours of wallowing, I decided to go take a shower seeing as it would help me feel a bit at ease.  I grabbed my towel and proceeded to the bathroom. To my luck, I didn't have a bathroom of my own. As I got out of my room I ran into Sam .

"Alex can I talk to you sweetie? " she spoke softly.

" Honestly I don't wanna talk about it okay? I'm sorry I blew up on John but I just need some time to think about all of this. The boy  who ruined my life  was in my room  a few hours ago ?! You expect me to be okay with that? And the fact that John told Cece and Josh about what happened doesn't make it better! ", I lashed out.

" Alex, I know this all seems overwhelming and that it wasn't wise of John to tell them but there is an explanation for both things and I'm sure if you let John explain, you will have some clarity about the entire thing. Please ? At least consider it ? " she said.

" Okay, I'll think about it. " I spoke.

" Ok sweetie."

" Oh and I won't be eating dinner tonight with you guys. I'm just gonna stay in my room."

" You sure ? I can make you a sandwich if you want? " She asked.

" No I'm good, I kinda lost my appetite." I chuckled softly.

" Alright. Goodnight honey." She hugged me lightly,

I hugged her back, holding her for a short while. Sam wasn't my real mom but she is the best. She gave me the love I never received as a child and I was grateful to have her. John as well was a way better father figure than my  biological father ever was. They were both there to pick up the broken mess I was. They held me and treated me like there own. 

I got in the shower and turned on the faucet. I stripped from my clothing and sat inside. After I was done I got out and went back to my room. I changed and did my daily prayers. Once I was done I turned my light off and drifted to a sweet and bitter sleep.

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AUTHOR'S NOTE :

First I wanna say I'm so very sorry I haven't written. I've had a huge writers block and my laptop broke so I couldn't write either way. Anyways, I got my inspiration back and I'm changing the story a bit but I will finish it !!! Again I'm so sorry :( :(  I will update again in a few days so till then <3