Huminga ako ng malalim "You should start now, dahil alam mo na na napatawad na kita"
"I wish it was that easy Aden"
"There's no harm in trying Sabrina"
She was about to say something when her girlfriend suddenly came "Oh, sorry balik nalang ako" she said before turning her back on us but before she can take another step Brie called her.
"We're done talking, take me back to my room"
I was so confused.
Because a man showed up and the next thing he did is to carry Brie. What the fuck? Her girlfriend fixed the blanket that's covering he legs but then I caught a glimpse of her legs and I saw a large scar because she's wearing shorts underneath the blanket.
They're about to go but I held the man's arm "Wait!"
"Excuse me but Brie needs to go" the girlfriend said to me.
"Why?" that's all I could asked. My breathing's starting to be unstable. I balled my fist. Clenched my jaw. And tried not to cry "Bakit Brie?!" I screamed.
"Let's go" Brie told the man and her girlfriend so they proceeded to go but then I caught up. Hinarangan ko sila wala akong paki kung may mga makakita. I needed to know. I needed answers. Bakit s'ya may peklat, bakit s'ya binubuhat bakit hindi n'ya sa akin sinabi?
I fucking need the truth.
"No, not until you tell me what I needed to know five years ago!" I shouted while crying.
"Aden please" she pleaded.
"Wala ba akong karapatan malaman Brie?"
She looked at me with red eyes "We're over Aden, matagal na" with that they left but then I heard Jela stopping them along with the rest of our friends.
Agad akong tumakbo papunta sa kanila "Brie you have to tell her everything, hindi mo habang buhay matatakasan si Aden" Jela said.
Just like me the others were equally shook of what they are seeing right now.
"Jela stop this" Brie's girlfriend said.
"No, tama na, I can't bear my friends seeing like this, obvious naman na mahal pa nila ang isa't-isa they needed this confrontation"
"But-"
"No Aya, stay out of this" Aya just heave a deafeted sigh "Monique" Jela called at ipinabuhat si Brie.
"Brie please" Jela asked Brie
"Jela, ayoko please naman respetuhin n'yo nalang iyonh desisyon ko"
"Limang taon ko itinago sa kanila 'to Brie, do you know how hard it is for me? Do you know how much I wanna tell Aden so that she would stop thinking what she did wrong?"
Lumapit ako "Jela stop" I said as they all looked at me "Wag na natin pilitin. Nakakapagod magpumilit sa taong ayaw sa'yo" with that I left them.
Nagkulong lang ako sa kwarto the whole night. Hindi rin ako lumabas for dinner. Clyde just got me room service. But I just drank the juice and I barely ate the food.
I was right all along. She had an accident.
Why did I even believed her when she said she just don't want to be with me anymore? Oh right, because I always belived in her. I trusted her enough.
I was an idiot for letting her go. Galit na galit ako ngayon sa sarili ko. If only I tried seeing her instead of running away. If only I asked her more. Napasabunot nalang ako sa buhok ko. I was so frustrated.
I called the manager of the hotel at 2am to asked for Brie's room number. I used my family name for that. And I don't care one bit about my reputation at all. I immediately went to her room.
I got the spare keycard. Ate will really be pissed at me dahil sa ginawa ko pero I'll save my worry for later. I freaking threatened the manager just to get this. I'd do anything to get answers. To be enlightened.
Dahil ang nasa isip ko lang ngayon ay ang makakuha ng sagot.
I tapped in the card and the door opened. I saw Aya's shook face when she saw me entering.
"Excuse me but where the fuck did you get a key?" she asked sounding so pissed. Girlfriend ka lang hindi ka pa asawa.
"None of your business, I'm here for Sabrina"
"Hindi ba sinabi n'yang ayaw na n'ya, bakit ba ang kulit mo?!" pagtataray n'ya.
"Wala akong pakialam at wala kang pakialam!"
"Aya sinong kausa-" there she is. wheeling her wheelchair "Aden, anong ginagawa mo dito?"
"We need to talk, now" agad naman lumapit sa kanya si Aya. Like she's being territorial. God I wanna pull Brie with me. I am so jealous right now at the same time mad.
"Pwede ba tigilan mo na si Brie?"
"Pwede bang wag kang makialam?"
"Pwede bang tumigil kayo?"
There's this glaring battle between me and Aya then Brie spoke again "Iwan mo muna kami Aya" I smiled triumphantly.
She glared at me one last time before leaving us.
"What do you wanna know?"
"Everything"
"I don't know where to start"
"Start to when you decided to break my heart"
"Hindi naman naging madali iyon"
"But you still did"
"Aden, I tried telling you the truth pero natakot ako"
"I was looking for you the wholeday, I tried calling you but your phone's dead"
"I was unconcious for a bit after the accident and when I woke up, you're the first person I thought of. But then when I can't move my legs, I started panicking. I wanna go to you because I know you're wating for me. It's frustrating" I went near her and pulled the wheelchair on the sofa as I sit on it. Finally magkaharap kami at magkalapit.
She's within reach now so I held her face wiped the tears dry "I'm sorry Aden, that's the only way I can protect you from me"
"What makes you think you didn't hurt me?"
"I know, pero it's easier kung break up lang kaysa makita mo akong ganito"
"Brie, I have died when you broke up with me and I was living with a dead soul for five years"
