Hey guys! Hope everyone is having a good day. This entry may be a little triggering so if you're not comfortable with self harm then please ignore this.
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I've been all up in my thoughts,
Thinking where did I go wrong.
Every step seems a blur,
That I can't figure out.
I can't express my darkest fears,
Knowing that they may come true.
Just the fear of feeling that,
Can have you running into the blue.
I can't handle all this pain.
All these thoughts just stuck in my brain.
Just the weight of it,
Brings my whole world shattering.
I just need someone to save me.
Who can look behind my deepest secrets,
And still admire me.
I'm not someone you can find out of a magazine.
I'm complicated like a cube,
Got no looks that can make you drool.
Just an ordinary girl caught up in her mind,
Takes refuge at the sound of her wind chime.
Thought I was over all this,
But it keeps following me around.
Won't let me forget the feeling.
Even when the sharp piece pierces through my skin,
Leaving it bleeding,
And me sitting in the comfort of the pain.
Used to the feeling,
I thought that nothing can hurt me more,
but the only thought about this hurts when you seek comfort in the worst.
I've changed not for the better,
But for the destruction
Of myself.
How can someone rescue me
When I'm so out of it?
I think the unthinkable the next minute,
Taking out the candle..
And look at the fire that is me,
One touch and you'll burn.
The feeling of hot wax,
Falling on my hands
And the tears falling down,
With no stop till I fall and drown.
I'm a mess
Which you can't restore..
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~harshii ♡
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