Favorite Girl

You are(n't)

*Justin's P.O.V*

Meadow had been avoiding me for weeks, I think she was embarrassed about what had happened. Though she had no reason to be. I felt awful, I felt like I had pressured her, and she snapped. I was trying to give her her space but I couldn't help it anymore.

I drove to her house and knocked on the door.

"I'm getting it! Damn!" I heard a deep voice.

The door opened. "Justin! Hey!" Chaz greeted me.

"Hey man." I said 'bro hugging' him. "What are you doing here?"

"Oh I just came to see Meadow." He said.

"Oh, she here?" I asked.

"Yea..." He said slowly. "You two are talking?" He asked.

"Yes." I furrowed my eyebrows.

"I just thought that after everything with you and Amber and Ryan..." He trailed off.

"Wai- she didn't tell you?" I asked.

"..... Tell me..?" He asked slowly.

"We- we're dating.." I said.

"What?" He yelled. "And she didn't tell me? How did I not know?"

"Dude. Is she here or not?" I asked annoyed at the whole situation.

He nodded. "Upstairs." He said.

I walked past him and up the stairs. I opened a door with sound coming from behind it. It creeped open. The room was pitch black, windows covered with black fabric. The walls painted black with glow in the dark paint splattered on them, a massive tv on the wall ahead of me, and what seemed to be a huge been-bag chair. One that could fit several people on it.
I walked closer and saw Meadow sitting on it curled into a ball with a blanket.

"What took you so long?" She asked looking up. "Justin?" She asked sitting up.

"Hey." I said sitting on the bee bag chair beside her.

"What are you doing here?" She asked.

"I missed you." I said brushing hair out of her face.

"Umm" she said blinking fast and scooting away.

"Meadow?"

"What?" She asked in a small voice looking down playing with the hem if the blanket.

I reached down to grab her hand "Why are yo-"

"Stop." She panicked moving her hand away.

"Stop what?" I asked.

"Don't touch me." She said breathing heavily.

"Meadow-"

"Don't." She said sternly.

"Okay." I said slowly. "I won't. I-I just want to talk to you." She didn't say anything. "Meadow why are you acting like you're scared of me?" I asked.

"Because." She said sounding like she was about to cry. "I don't know why, but in my head you're Brian. When you talk I hear his voice, and when I look at you I see his face." She said.

"I would never do anything to hurt you though, you know that." I said.

"I know Justin wouldn't hurt me, but Brian would. And you aren't Justin you're Brian." She said.

Everything she was saying didn't make sense, but did at the same time. At the hotel she was scared shitless, it brought every awful memory of Brian back. Now she couldn't get rid of them, and because I'm the one that brought the memories back, they were being projected on me.

"I'm not Brian." I said softly.

"I know." She cried. "But you are."

"Meadow please-" I said reaching for her shoulder.

"Please don't touch me." She said.

I sighed and rubbed the back of my head. "Do you want anything?" I asked.

"I just want you to go." She said crying.