Favorite Girl

Pattie

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I started driving to my apartment. But I knew if that's where I went sooner or later Chaz And Ryan would show up. I didn't want to talk to them. I mean I wanted to talk to someone... There are only four people I trust. 1 Chaz, 2 Ryan, 3 my mom, 4..... Pattie.

Oddly enough Pattie and I stayed in touch, just through the phone and online. I hadn't seen her in five years, but anytime I needed someone other than my mom, or Chaz and Ryan. I called her. I didn't know what else to do. I was just driving around all teary eyed and sad. So I grabbed my phone, and found her contact. It started to ring... And ring.... And ring..... And ring..... And ring... And I was just about to hang up.

"Hello? Meadow?"

"Hi Pattie..."

'"How are you sweetie?" She said being her sweat self

"Um actually" I said as a tear fell down my face "not very good... Are you in Canada?" I asked knowing she probably was.

"Yes... Do you want to come over?" She asked worriedly.

"Yes... If you don't mind...."

"Of course I don't... Come over."

So I went to Pattie's.
And we talked about everything bad that has happened in five years... After we got past Justin... The now Justin. We talked about everything good that happened in five years. The biggest thing was Chaz and Ryan. They were the best thing ever. I loved them more than anything. They were my best friends. Pattie didn't realize that the three of us had gotten so close. She thought it was nice. She started asking about Caitlin... Her and Caitlin were close. Pattie and I were closer but it was different. She noticed that when Caitlin was brought up I got kind of quiet, and that took us to present Justin.

"Sweetie? What's wrong, do not like Caitlin?" Pattie asked concerned

"No! No it's not that it's uh.... It's a whole thing..." I said looking down

"I wanna hear..." Pattie said

"It's that I um I don't really know how to tell you this, so I uh I guess that I'll just tell you..." I took a shaky breath "I love Justin..." I said as I looked to see if we were on the same page. She nodded indicating me to go on "and I sort of always have... Not since we were two I guess that's when we met. But he was my first love. I guess that was when we were about ten that I fell in love with him. Him and Caitlin started dating when we were thirteen, I was so happy because his face would light up whenever he saw her or heard from her, it made me happy to see such an amazing smile on such a perfect person. I knew he deserved it, I wanted him to have it, but I wanted his face to light up, for him to get that smile when he saw me." I started to tear up from the emotional scars I had covered up over the last five years. "I know he loved me.... But it was like a sister and no more... He told me that he was leaving, but he didn't say goodbye, or call, or text he didn't do anything. And then he comes back five whole years later, and thinks I shouldn't be mad. I decided that I'd give him another chance, I thought that maybe in five years he realized that he loved me too. So I stopped by Chaz's after work." I started to sob, the tears were pouring out of my eyes at this point "he took Caitlin with him... And he had his arm around her. It hurts me so much. But I think that I deserve to be happy, even if its not with him."

Pattie came on the couch and wrapped me in a warm loving hug "Meadow... He does love you. He always has, since you were five practically." I looked up at her in shock "he didn't talk to you for five years because he thought you were going to move on... When we first left for months he cried himself to sleep because he missed you so much." It was silent for a moment "he wrote Nothing Like Us for you..."