Stuck (BangChan x Reader)

Part 4

FLaShBaCk tiMe kiDdOs
(Christmas break :)
(Chaeyoung pov)

"You've definitely got a fever..." Chris sighs, setting the thermometer on the bathroom counter. I groan. And just days before christmas;;

"I think we have some benadryl or something you can take, maybe tylenol too? I don't know, I think thats actually a painkiller, I-" he laughs digging through a drawer.

"It is??" I laugh. He looks at me and sighs.

"See this is why we shouldn't be living by ourselves- just take some Benadryl and drink some water for now, and if you're not better by next week, we can visit a doctor, okay?"
I nod.

(No one pov)

It was 2 A.M. Christmas day, Chris and Chaeyoung were up talking. Neither of them had gotten much sleep, and Chaeyoung was still suffering from her cold. At one point, it seemed something came over her. She realized she wanted him. Not in any lustful or sexual way, she just wanted to be around him, to be a part of his life, and she was. But the girl was selfish... She felt she was always subconsciously aware of her feelings towards him, but never took the time to sort them out, so it all just kinda... came out... accidentally.

(2 A.M. Christmas Day)
(Chaeyoung pov)

We both sit on his bunk laughing at some dumb video. It's gotten to a point where even he was getting slightly delusional from sleep deprivation. I felt awful, and was practically high on pain meds, so anything could have made us laugh. The laughter subsides, and we sit in silence for a moment, still grinning widely. I glance at him and something... changed. Before I could stop and think, I was talking;;

"Okay like no homo but I... think I'm in love with you-" I say, never meeting his eyes. His phone falls out of his hands with a soft thud. I can only think about his laugh, the way his eyes turned to little crescents, how he tosses his head back, or leaned against something to steady himself. The way his face softens as he smiles, showing off his dimples...

"What?"

I don't dare look at him.

"Like like at first it was little things, like just seeing your smile would brighten my day, or maybe just something you said would give me butterflies or whatever, but now its like... everything you do, I find it all so endearing. I... love everything about you. And-" I stutter, struggling to find words.

"I-I know that might sound- oh god what am I saying, wait." I slowly place a hand over my mouth, realizing what I had been going on about, everything catching up to me. My heart is beating out of my chest. What did I just say?? No, no, he has a girlfriend, how could I say that? Idiot! How could I be so selfish? I gasp lightly, tears threatening to spill. I refuse to look him in the eyes now.

"Youngie..." Chris says, reaching for my hand.

"I'm sorry." I stand up and quickly rush out of the room.

"Wait, please!" I hear him yell, he's trailing me.
I cant talk to him now. He mumbles something as the front door slams behind me.

(Bang Chan pov)

"Don't go..." I whisper as the door slams shut. My mind races. Did she really mean all that? Chaeyoung... loves me? A smile creeps onto my face and my heart flutters a little. Loves... she said 'love' twice... my face burns at the thought. But she was upset? My smile fades. Should I do somethi- Something cuts through my thoughts and I throw a hand over my mouth. I have a girlfriend, what am I thinking?? It could never work...

(Edit: BRUH WHYS THIS SO DRAMATIC💀)