Missing Half a Soul

Why?

Jade's POV

"Jade, you may not want to tell Althea's friends the story but you have to tell us. We need to know what's going on. Althea's your soul mate? And you've known for 3 years?", Jasper says.

I sigh, "Yes she's my soulmate. I met her at bar down at the beach near our old house", I reply. "Why didn't you tell us?", Jasmine asks. "I don't know. I just wanted to keep it to myself for awhile. I wanted to really get to know her before I introduced her to you guys", I say.

"Did Mama and Papi know?", she asks. "Yeah the night Althea screamed at me. I came home in tears. I couldn't stand to be alone that night so I told them everything. Including why she was pissed", I say.

"What did you do?", Jasper asks. The thought of that night gives me nightmares. The look of pure pain in Althea's eyes hurts me so badly. Much more knowing I'm the cause. "I.....I...I just fucked up okay. I don't want to talk about it", I start tearing up again.

"No stop. Whatever you did, hurt her so badly Jade. I don't know what you did but it was clearly bad so you don't get to play the pity card. So own up to it and admit what you did wrong!!", he yells.

I can't help my tears. "I can't Jasper, it hurts. I know I hurt her and I deserve every bit hate from her but it still hurts. You know how you feel about Elizabeth. You clearly love her and you only met recently. I spent the entire month with Althea. Everday she made me smile, laugh and feel things only she could make me feel. I was fucking stupid I know. I knew what drinking does to me yet I still did it, twice", I say.

"Wait, you drank? You drank with your soulmate that was only 15 at the time. Omg Jade you know what you're like when you're drunk", he says.

"I know, I'm fucking stupid. I fucked up badly. That's why ever since that night, I never drank again. Every time I see alcohol, all I can see is her. Yelling at me", I say. Jasper stops talking, he looked like he's thinking.

"If you won't tell me, I'll get it from Liz. I just hope that for your sake, there's still a chance she'll forgive you. But I don't know what you did so I can't make a guess", Jasper leaves after that.

I sit on the hospital bed that Jasmine's still on. "Hey Jade, I know that I don't know what you did or how serious it is. But I can tell that you really do love Althea. I can see that this killing you inside and that you regret what you did. So I know she'll see it too", she says.

"Jas thank you, but you don't how bad it was. I could see nothing but pain and rage in her eyes when she saw me", my sister sits up to give me a hug. "The mate bond is special. I could feel how Amber felt seeing me in the condition I was in last night. I'm sure you know what I'm talking about", she says.

"Yeah I know. When we we're still happy together, if our soul charms touch I felt so much warmth and I never wanted anything else other than her. But there were times where I also felt it when she didn't like someone else flirting with me. She never showed jealousy but I could feel that she didn't like it", I realize I wasn't close enough to Althea to feel her pain that night, but it still hurt I can only imagine what she felt. Because of me.

"That's why I'm saying this. You guys are soulmates, you have a special bond so there's still a chance she'll forgive you. Depending how badly you fucked up, you're gonna have to work fucking hard to fix your bond. But the bond is still there, just badly broken", she says.

I smile and hug my sister, "Thanks Jas, I always wonder how you're the younger sister", she giggles, "I learn from poor examples, Jasper's not excluded". I laugh, "Fair enough. I'll try Jasmine. I'll do everything I possibly can to fix things with her. She's all I've wanted for the past 3 years and that's never gonna change", I say.

"I've regretted that night for 3 years. Even if somehow Althea forgives me, I'll still regret that night. If I didn't fuck up that night, I would've never lost her". I finish talking as I see Jasper in the corner of my eye.

I wipe the tears from eyes and take a deep breath, "Hey, how long have you been standing there?", I ask. "Long enough. I heard what you did from Liz. I was gonna give you an earful but I think 3 years of punishment was enough to teach you", he comes and sits beside me.

"One day without her was enough, but I deserved it", I say. "You really did. Seems like a long shot Jade. I was talking to her before you showed up. She's extremely nice and quite funny, her sarcasm gets me every time. But one thing is very noticeable with her is that she hates talking about soulmates. You can see it her eyes, how much pain she's in whenever Liz and I would hold hands. At first I thought it was just because she's faking it and is badly wanting her soulmate but now I know why", stings my heart every time I hear this.

"I'm telling you Jade, it'll be difficult to even get her to talk to you; but you better still try. That girl deserves to have a happy life with her soulmate, which happens to be you so fix this", he says. "I will", honestly I'm so lucky to have these 2 in my life and I'm determined to have Althea back too.