I try to do right
I try to be the person everyone needs me to be
But I cant
I keep messing up
I keep failing at everything i need to fix
I just want to be normal
But i'm not
Im a fuck up
I'm a complete waste of space
And so many people will be like
oh no that not true
you are important
you do matter
but i really don't
i have a few people who i can rely on but
i always feel like a burden bc i sit there texting them
saying oh no my life is shit
i feel so bad for myself
i hate doing that it makes me feel so needy
so instead ill sit there at 1 am getting yelled at
curled up in my bed crying
by myself wishing someone would read my mind
and come save me
but ofc that's not gonna happen
its just a fantasy
i'm just so sick of it all
i'm sick of always doing wrong
i'm sick of being fucking no one
i'm sick of myself always pushing people away
i'm sick of it
But idk how to change
