Legacies Preferences and Imagines

Let You Down - Danielle&Jenny

Danielle and Jenny are dating and have been for a while, Danielle used to self harm and relapses.

Danielle's pov.

2 months. That's how long I was clean for, 2 months. 2 months without cutting, without purging, without attempting to take my own life. Recently, I've been getting loads of hate comments, the voices in my head are coming back but this time they're even stronger, I want to cave in so badly but I don't want to let my girlfriend down.
"Hey baby." Jenny said walking in through the front door placing a soft kiss on my forehead. I gave a small fake smile.
"Hi babe, how was filming?" I asked and Jenny's face lit up talking about our place of work.
"It was fun, I wish you were there today though, I needed to see my beautiful girlfriend with me." She pouted like a child and I chuckled at her.
"I'm sorry babe, I'll be there with you tomorrow." I say back holding back the tears threatening to spill, still having a fake. Smile on my face. Jenny looked me in the eyes and I quickly looked away.
"What's up baby girl?" She asked.
"Nothing, I need the bathroom." I quickly rushed out the living room into the bathroom. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and I was slowly giving up, the voices in my head became louder.
'Failure.' 'Fat.' 'Die.' 'Jenny doesn't love you, she just feels sorry for you.' 'You don't deserve her.'
The comments on my last post running through my head.
'You're the worst actress I've ever see.' 'You're the main person in legacies? A monkey could have done it better.' 'You need to loose weight.' 'Ew, are those scars on your wrist. That's disgusting.' 'You should just kill yourself.'
They are right, this is how everyone must see me, Jenny doesn't love me. Tears were streaming down my face but I didn't care, I couldn't see properly. I open the cupboard in the bathroom and pull out my makeup bag and grabbing the only blade Jenny didn't throw away, the reason being it was hidden. I take the blade into my right hand and study it for a minute, the small silver object was cold between my fingers. I put the cold object to my left wrist slowly dragging it across my warm skin, I did this a few times before a knock at the door pulled me out my trance.
"Hey baby, are you okay in there?" I heard he soft voice of my girlfriend through the door.
"Yeah." I say with a shaky voice.
"What's up baby?" She tried opening the door then stopped realising it was locked. I looked at my arm and instantly regretted what I did. I opened the bathroom door with blood dripping from my arm.
"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry Jenny. I didn't mean to, I'm sorry." I say with sobs shaking my body, she takes me into her arms not caring if she gets blood everywhere.
"It's okay, baby, calm down. When you calm down we can talk about it, okay?" She said and I needed cuddling into her while she takes off her jacket to wrap around my arm, she held it on my arm and cuddled me into you stroking my hair.

When I had calmed down Jenny lifted me onto the counter in the bathroom and took her jacket off my arm and look at the severity of the cuts. She grabbed the first aid kit and pulled out an antiseptic wipe and started to clean it, I bit my lip.
"Are you okay, baby?" Jenny asked and I nodded stiffly. "It's going to hurt for a few more seconds okay, bare with it a little longer." She kissed my cheek softly then continued cleaning the cuts. She then wrapped my arm in a bandage and picked me up, she carried me into our room and sat me on the bed. She then walked out the room, assuming to put the jacket in the wash. She came back and sat opposite me.
"Why?" Was the only word that fell from her lips, she didn't look angry or disappointed, she just looked upset. I shrugged my shoulders knowing she wouldn't like the answer.
"Was it things on your phone?" She took hold on my hand and I nodded. She shook her head.
"What have I told you about reading them comments?" She sighed and pulled me into her.
"I know and I'm sorry. I let you down, it wont happen again." I said leaning into my girlfriend more.