My Baby

3

LEESUNG

I have been trying to get better since the accident but its really hard. Well its only been a day but still.

I cant eat a lot because it makes my throat burn. Between the hanging and crying yesterday my throat made me want to die again. My body was sore and I didnt want to move or even get up this morning. But today was also the day my parents are going on vacation for the weekend so me and Jae have time alone together. Maybe by tonight when they leave I will be able to walk without groaning.

Jae was called into work this morning until lunch so he can finish some things before he takes his break. I haven't really spoken to him all day and he didnt wake me up to say good bye like he usually does. I had to be off my phone all day because everything on my socials are just pictures of the accident and screenshots of the messages. I dont know how they got either but it made me upset to see them. They even had a picture of me with the bruise on my neck. 

Humans are the most annoying thing on this planet I swear. 

Anyways its around 12 now and I just heard the front door open so I assumed it was Jae. I was correct when I heard the door open and someone taking off there shoes then flopping on the bed with a groan. "Did they work you too hard?" I asked with a grin. He nodded and pulled me closer.

I blushed and cuddled into his chest. I closed my eyes enjoying being in his arms. I could tell he was slowly falling asleep which made me kind of upset. Not at him well maybe a little, but mainly at his job. They overworked him on a day he wasnt even supposed to be at work. I'm mad at him because he isnt even trying, he told me again that he couldnt have sex with me today. I dont know if I did somthing wrong again or he said it because of the accident but I dont like it.

I felt worthless like I was a waste of his time. I read a book on line saying what to do to get a man 'in the mood' and I didn't want to do it but if it makes him feel better then I'm okay with it.

I did as told and got rid of all my clothes. I took a deep breath and reached down into the blackest and touched Jay's dick threw his pants. He didnt move at first but as I continued to "palm him" as they called it he started to grow hard under my hand and shirt in the bed. He moved so he was on his back now so I pulled the blanket back slightly and got between his legs.

I had no idea what I was doing so I just went with what I saw. I pulled down his briefs and took his dick in my hand. I gave a small lick to the tip of it feeling selfcontious about if I was good enough at it. When I heard a slight groan from above I knew I had to be doing somthing right.

I dont think I would be able to fit it in my mouth one because its huge and 2 because my throat is still sore from yesterday.

"Baby what are you doing?" He mumbled sleepily. "Taking care of daddy." I whispered having my cheeks immediately warm up.

I heard another noise from above before licking again and hearing a moan.

"Baby you need to stop before it goes further and I cant stop myself." He grunted out. I sighed lland looked up at him. "When will you learn that I dont want you to stop. I know I've already said it before but that hurts my feelings when I hear you say that." I said looking down again right after.

He was quiet for awhile before he was pushing me down onto the bed softly. He crawled over me and moved the hair from my face. "You are sure your ready?" He asked hesitantly. I nodded feeling butterflies in my stomach. "Words baby." He said. "Y-Yes." I studdered out feeling more nervous. "Good boy. I'm going to make it as painless as possible but I cant guaranty that it wont hurt a bit." He said running a hand down my sides making me shudder. I nodded again.

He gently took off my clothes but I stopped him when he Went to take off my shirt. "C-Can I leave my shirt on P-Please?" I asked fiddling with the bottom of it. "That's fine baby but can you tell me why?" He asked running his fingers threw my hair. I hesitated before shaking my head no.

"Okay I wont push you but I want to know after all of this." He said sternly.  I nodded but again didnt feel like I would be ready to disappoint him with my body.

He kissed my lips and all around my face whispering things like 'Pretty', 'sexy', 'cute', 'beautiful' all the things made my eyes tear up. By the time he was done I was crying softly and when he noticed he just wiped them away and kissed my trembling lips.

"One day I will show you just how beautiful you are, one day I'll be able to convince you that you mean to the world to me. One day I'll show you that people care about you in this wo-" he started but I let out a sob. I turned my head away and cried into my hands. He continued to kiss down my body saying things he loves about me and eventually he made it to my feet. He gently placed a kiss on my ankle which was a tradition to do when you truly love someone and dont doubt your love for them.

I reached up and wrapped my arms around him. I cried into his shoulder hard and not letting go.

He lifted me up so I was sitting in his lap. It was a bit uncomfortable because of both of us were hard but he knew I needed this.

"I-Im sor-sorry." I sobbed coughing a bit. "Baby theres nothing to be sorry about." He said holding my close. "I-Im sorry I c-cry so much. I-I-I'm sorry I'm not the perfect lo-lover. I always m-make you feel like y-you not being a good boyfriend w-when you are the m-most amazing person I have ever m-me. P-please dont l-leave..." i whispered wiping my eyes as more came down. "Awe baby I'm not going to leave you. Is that what's been bothering you?" He asked rubbing my back. I nodded and held onto him tighter. "Okay... I will do everything in my power to change your mind. I'm never going to leave you baby. Never in my time with you have I thought about leaving and I never will. You are the most amazing thing that has happened to me and I wouldnt change anything but how you view yourself. " he said wiping my eyes again.

I sniffled feeling better but still kind of sad. I laid back down after slipping off my shirt. All the bruises and cuts on my arms were revealed to him. He had scene the cuts before and got a glimpse of the bruises yesterday but he hadn't seen them all together. I hated the way I looked and that's the reason I didnt want to take off my shirt but I knew I needed to trust that he wouldnt judge me. I needed to expose myself to him for him to accept me and that's what I wanted.

"Beautiful" he whispered and placed gentle kisses on my chest again. I whined softly as he gets close to my private parts and thighs. "P-Please." I whispered out even though I didnt mean to. "Please what baby?" He asked.

"T-Take me"

Be prepared for amut in the next chapter i know i have been slacking and this isnt the best chapter to post right after months of not but i feel bit better about the next chapter and I hope you guys dont hold it against me😔

Have a good night/morning/afternoon from your author

Chloe