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Chapter eight
„A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing.“George Bernard Shaw (1856 - 1950)
I got him back was all that mattered. All the Heart ache, break and pain. All the unnecessary mistakes I made nothing was important now. The darkness pulled me back but the light, my light, my Edward was my company. I remembered everything. My fate did had an unexpected surprise for me. I was not going to die. I was innocent and he -my guardian angel- had saved my life. The life I thought had been thrown away for nothing.
Bella get your grip together and fight. My inner voice started to recite. You need to wake up! Slowly and with every power I had I tried to regain controll over my so sore body. I wondered how long in total I had been in this state.
It must have beend hours at least days it seemed to me that I had seen his beautiful eyes. And than it happened. At first it was like the last time. Nearly blinded i tried to feel what was around me. This time no one was next to me. I looked around disoriented. Where the hell was I? It must have been a private ward in a clinic or hospital. The beeping on the machine accelerated like my heart was going to take off. OK. YOU NEED to calm down. Everything is fine. My inner voice started talking again.
I took a deep breath and slowly tried to sit up. This was something I wouldn't do soon on myself. My arms were following the order of my brain but had no power at all. With the strength of my arms I couldn't brush my hair by myself. This was ridiculous! I looked around panicking how I could someone to help me. There it only must have been ten inches away. The remote to call the nurse. This was something I needed to do.
With a huge amount of will power and a lot more afford for my body I reached it with my index finger and tried to press it slightly.
No reaction. Ok, keep calm Bella. I tried to reason myself. Again! Try harder and again! And so I did. This must have been looking ridiculous to any person who could see it but I had a goal. And it was Call Help!
Five Minutes later a strong and big nurse came rushing in not looking at me directly and instead looked at the machine.
"Ah again a failure. We need new remotes here" She shouted back. Maybe she was telling her colleague and when she turned around she almost fell to the ground.
"Oh my heaven! Lisa call the doctor and the family. The patient, I mean Bella is awake"
Almost tripping over her own feet she reminded me of myself sometimes she hushed over to me. Started feeling my pulse and counting in her head.
"Bella, dear how do you feel? The doctors are on their way? Would you like a higher postition?" She asked wondering.
I so much wanted to answer but my tongue didn't respond to my brains order. I tried to tell her yes and when my tongue failed the second try, I tried to nod. She understood immediately and did put the back of the bed a bit higher. There now I could see the room. It was filled with flowers, there was a photo on the sidetable of my Edward, his family and my adoptive parents. I wonder who did put those here? The walls were in a lovely creamy colour, light and airy ivory curtains and a very comfortable looking couch opposite of the bed. Where the hell am I?
Whilst I was trying to digest the impact of impressions. Two doctors entered my room. The nurse filled them in, that I didn't speak but gave signs trying to express myself. And then the routine began. They checked my eyes, asked me millions of questions and I tried to answer with a nod of with a like shake of my head. They seemed genuinly surprised but happy.They excused themselves and left me with my Nurse who did watch over me like a mother. The doctors told me that I had been fed via total parenteral nutrition and he nurse would prepare me for the procedure to remove the tube. Physical training and massages would start this evening. They told me it would take time but hopefully I would recover soon. They didn't know exactly why I fell into such a deep coma but they called it MCS and explained to me that it was a minimal conscious state which I was in. They monitored my on weekly basis and got MRI's of my brain which showed them that it was intact all the time. The last things I couldn't follow anymore...
The Nurse washed me and was babbling all the time how happy they all are now that I woke up. she brushed my hair and ba that I saw how long it was now. It hit me in the face. Oh my god. My hair was about ten inches longer than at my last day in Prison. How long have I been in this state?
The nurse must have seen my irritated look on my face and sat on the chair next to mine.
"Bella my dear. Since the day you have been brought to the hospital time passed. But don't worry. everything will turn up well for you. You have been with us here for almost a year." She sighed. I was the first nurse that took care of you and we decided that it would be best if you had only three nurses who were responsible for you" She smiled now and was genuinly happy for me. I tried to smile and thank her and my lips slowly curled up.
"Oh dear, you look so beautiful when you smile" She exclaimed happily. "I am soo looking forward to see Mr. Cullens face when he will turn up after work"
Edward was coming. My Edward!! I was smiling now all over my face and it did hurt a lot but I neverminded.
My Nurse saw the effect Edward had on me and smiled in return. "I see you two lovebirds are made for each other" She patted my head lightly. "He will be out of his mind when he comes in and sees you. He never left you, only for work or business travels. He slept on that couch for the last year. He is like a son for all of us here. He brings you flowers everyday!"
Oh wow. What will happen when I can't respond to him. My thoughts were busy on how I could get him to tell me everything. The doctors came back and told me about the procedure and how they would remove the tube. First I had to sid upright. The Nurse did put me up, fixed my position with Pillows to each side and the doctors cleaned their hands and got in operation clothes.
"Bella, we need you to stay calm and breath normaly but keep calm. It will be over in a minute, ok?" he said.
I nodded. Ok take a deep and steady breath. This is not going to kill you, ok? I tried to reason myself.
The doctor defixed the tube from my nose and when I took a deep breath in and started to exhale he remove the tube in one quick move. It didn't hurt much but it was just discusting. The taste in my mouth was horrible.
After throwing all in the carbage. He returned with a solution and asked me if I would like to rinse my mouth with the solution. I nodded and while he filled my moth with this fresh tasting solution the other doctor monitored us and held something to puke in.
I was glad. I felt fresh and clean again. The sun shined into my room. I had no Idea were I was but I was sure I was having a new undefined scent of life in my nose. "
