Be More Feminine[DISCONTINUED]

One time I fell asleep on the toliet- Chapter 2

I walked into school Monday morning. I was a completely different person. The SQUIP made me start to un-transition. My hair was still kinda short, but my whole outfit was different. I had on a skirt with leggings, the shirt I was wearing was a blouse. I had gotten my ears pierced and bought makeup. The SQUIP was making me look like a girl again. I hate this. I hate it so fucking much. But I can't dare try to revolt, or I'll get shocked. Over the weekend, the SQUIP made me throw out everything I owned that 'was for boys' or 'too masculine'. I wanted to be Jeremy again.

The first thing I got greeted with when I walked into school, was 'Well well well. Guess you finally realized how disgusting being trans was.' This school sucks. Can't everyone see how bad I'm suffering? The only person to care was my dad surprisingly. He asked if I was doing fine and why I was throwing out my binder and shit. The SQUIP forced me to snap back with telling him my name is Sarah, not Jeremy. God how I longed for someone to get this thing out of my head.

During the first period, Michael passed me a note for me to meet him during lunch. Of course, the teacher saw the note. "Jeremy Heere. Can you at least pretend to focus on the lesson instead of passing notes." I, of course, had to correct him.

"It's Sarah. Mr. Ross." He gave me a funny look and nodded.

Time Skip~

Lunchtime came quickly. I spotted Michael in the cafeteria and sat down by him. "Hey, Michael."

"Jeremy, what's going on?" I tapped my fingers on the table a few times before the SQUIP stopped me. "Jeremy. Answer me." His eyes were filled with concern.

"Nothing is going on. And two things. One: it's Sarah, and two: I don't always have to answer you, Mell." Venom laced my words as they shot out of my mouth. I stood up and went to get my lunch. After I grabbed the tray I heard Brooke yelling my name.

"SARAH! SIT OVER HERE!" I practically ran over there. Sitting with these people is better than sitting alone. Rich looked me up and down.

"Tall ass?" After realizing that it was me he stood up and pulled me by my arm. "You're lucky I can't hit a girl, where's my money?" Fuck. SQUIP help me out. What do I tell Rich?

"Up up down down left right A." Rich jumped like he got shocked and looked at me with a smile.

"You got one!" He put his fist out.

"Yeah. Sorry, I meant to go through you but- Please don't hit me!" My hands flew up into the defensive x stance and I shrunk back.

"Dude! This is awesome! I was gonna give you a fist bump though. Anyway, I could've used that money. Things are rough at home if you know what I'm saying..." I awkwardly bumped his fist and laughed. Without warning I suddenly interjected.

"Yeah, my dad drinks too." What the hell? Dad doesn't drink. Rich grinned.

"Yo. Fucking dads, right?" Rich laughed. "He usually passes out by nine, you should come over, play X-Box. You know with a SQUIP the only controller you need...is your mind?" Rich walked back to the lunch table. My attention soon goes to talking to off-brand Keanu. What was that about?

"I synced with his SQUIP. Now his desires are compatible with your own." So we're friends now? "Well, what's friendship but a bond between two people? Now you and Rich have a bond. It's just digital." Hey SQUIP, do I have to do all this? "Well, now Sarah. As much as I want to see you happy, you wanted to be popular. In the contract, it says nothing about how you feel." You don't care about how I want to feel. I got you so I could be with Christine! "Tsk tsk, Sarah. As I remember correctly you wanted to be the cool guy, the one who's story is about. You are getting that!" Whatever.

I went back to the table and started to eat the nasty cafeteria food. "You really wanna purge don't ya?" What? I don't wanna purge. "Yeah but this food is over 250 calories. It's quite easy to not purge. One: you don't eat or two: you bring a healthy packed lunch like Brooke and Chloe." I'm gonna eat this and there is nothing you can do to stop me.

"Sarah! Are you listening?" Chloe asked me.

"Yeah. Sorry. What were we talking about?" She stared blankly at me.

"We were saying that Jake's Halloween party is gonna be awesome! You should come!" Brooke chimed in.

"Okay!"

Time Skip~

I walked into the bathroom and went into a stall. It's been years since I've been in the girl's restroom. The SQUIP forces me to kneel and hunch over the toilet. "Sarah. Don't ever tell me you aren't going to listen to me. You ungrateful...tranny." Those words cut into me like a knife. Tears formed in my eyes. "Oh no, Sarah. I'm not letting you cry. You do what I say you do." Puke came out of my mouth and I threw up in the toilet. "You are lucky Sarah. What I'm doing to you is mild compared to other SQUIPs. I'm not trying to hurt you, I'm trying to help." Yeah. Help.

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